well, I'm not really sure what to write anymore... there's no hope for Daddy... they've done everything they can, the infection's still there, the antibiotics are not working, the chest tubes have stopped draining... today they talked to me about removing the chest tubes because its another source that can cause infection... they've also talked to me about taking steps that will eventually end his life... things like turning off the antibiotics, stopping the tube feeds, etc... they'll make him comfortable, but he's not considered stable enough to go to a long-term facility and he's not going to recover...
so now I have decisions to make, and I'm not sure I can... my head tells me to not let him suffer... my heart just isn't ready to let Daddy go...