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Alone In Grief

Created For The June 2023 : Mood Board Challenge

****Warning****** Sensitive Journaling About Grief & Cancer...


I have been grieving the sudden loss of my beloved husband Ray...of 26 years...And though,I'm MIA from my Cheerio duties...I felt the need to create an Art Journaling Layout to express my own personal feelings...And put down some of my feelings & thoughts...

This has been the hardest time of my life...I thought I knew what pain was...Having gone through so much physical pain in my life...along with recovering from my near fatal accident back in November of last year...From which I am still struggling...My husband took ill & fell at our apartment & I had to call an ambulance for him...We had no idea he was so seriously ill...He was in the hospital for 9 days...& he passed away...I still can't believe how quickly things had progressed...Ray spent his last days in Palliative Care at the hospital...Knowing what I know now...I was lucky that I had as much time with him as I did...Watching him get sicker was a grueling experience for me...All I did was cry...I was his wife & I would always be there for him...Just like he was always there for me...Long days & nights at the hospital...Sitting in a wheel chair...Holding his hand...Talking to him...Singing to him...Praying with him...Cleaning his face & so on...He was in a lot of pain...It hurt me so much to see him like that...They kept him comfortable so he wasn't in pain anymore...His last days were excruciating for me,my Dad & the rest of his family & friends...Some couldn't come anymore because they couldn't bare to see him like that...he passed in his sleep...& the only peace & solace I got was knowing he wasn't gonna suffer anymore...I miss him so much it hurts...

I'll stop here...
I have written more about my story in the Challenge #3 Thread here : https://oscraps.com/community/threads/june-challenge-3-mood-board.37631/post-669052


Thank You! for all the kind words & wishes you have left for me...I really appreciate it...to everyone...xx Rhonda...


For this challenge : My 5 blocks are :

#1. The Color Green : I have Green in my layout
#7. Brown Texture : I have Brown texture
#4. The Color Blue : I have Blue broken hearts
#9. Animal : I have Birds
#12. Brown Round Circles with white : I have brown & white round circle confetti

*broken blue hearts : courtesy of : pngaaa.com
*tear drops & vintage crying lady : courtesy of OpenClipartVectors : Pixabay
*large red shattered heart : Courtesy of Freepik
*blue water drops : Susannp4 : Pixabay
*font : I used for my journaling : Myriad Pro Bold Condensed [shadowed]
*photos : Me
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easyeyes4you
I have read all your words, and I find myself speechless. 26 years ago on July 3, I found myself in a similar situation... I lost my husband 1 month short of 36 years after a 6-month battle with cancer... I can't imagine the shock of your short timeline... each of us has a different situation and I know my situation was different from yours... One of the things I was told was to not make any major changes in life, including moving... but obviously, you have mobility issues which will force you to move.. .Moving is considered one of the most stressful things in life... and you have just endured another one. Knowing how close I came to being homeless is part of what makes me so sympathetic towards the homeless... There are as many stories there, as there are homeless people... each of us is different and have unique stories... One of the things I did, that I found most helpful was going to Bereavement groups... where you are sharing with others in the same boat and the groups are led by trained people. I also read books on the grief process.... Particularly the one by Dr Joyce Brother's following her husbands death.I am sure you are going to find a strong support system here on this site... Take your time, and don't let anyone rush you about anything, or tell you to get over it... I don't know how old you are... you look young... I was 56 when he died. I am so sorry you have so many serious health issues yourself... I am so grateful to be healthy.

I am sure working on your beautiful page was therapeutic.... Please feel free to contact me if you feel the need to talk... Liz
 
nia
I do not have the words to express my sympathy.
I hope your family and friends support you in this extremely difficult time.
Wish you much strength, nia.
 
Oldenmeade
Sweet Rhonda, my heart breaks for you. One of the things I fear most is my husband dying before me and my not being able to cope with what follows. I hope you can find strength and comfort in the love that surrounds you. I know you are much loved online. (((((((((((((((((((((((Rhonda)))))))))))))))))))))))
 
Cherylndesigns
I'm so very sorry, Rhonda. Wish I could be with you to just sit with you. I don't have the words, either, but you and I have talked in the past and we shared a lot. You know I'm thinking of you and sending you all the love and strength that I can. Keep doing your art, it will help. Love you and miss you, my friend. :brokenheart::brokenheart::brokenheart:
 
cfile
You are in my thoughts and prayers Rhonda. I am glad you are scrapping to help with the grieving. It is very helpful for sure. keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
 

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