So...here is the (short version) story....

[MrsPeel]

hello my lovelies.....
do you remember me?
I wont blame you if you don't...
I know I have been a bad girl, and every time I was about to come sit to make sometime for all of you who have been the BEST to me...something else happened that made me want to crawl into a hole and get out when Sarita is 26.....
Lots of things happened, my health keeps deteriorating and I am in part to blame as I'm not eating well, I had problems with my gas & electric supplier who wants to put my monthly payments from £65 to £140, and they are telling me I owe them over £700 for last year, had a problem with my carer, then had a problem with my fridge, and so on.
The last one was, some of you know already as I posted in places where people relay on me being on schedule, I caught Sarita stoned up to her elbows with her boyfriend...in MY kitchen.
Long story short I had to involve social services which ended up being worse (I should have known) and know my doctor is helping me making an official complaint against one of the social workers.

So, I had a few guest spots I had applied for teams, and some other designers I didn't count on being called to be part of their CT ... I didn't want to stop scrapping because the distraction is always welcome....
but I have no had a wish for socialising and I'm trying my best to change that now that things are fitting into place.

Because God is great to us (if I had any weakening of my faith before, this time I kinda saw the light) He didn't abandon me completely and it just happened that things went on a way that Sarita went into work, she had a trip to Wales and is leading children camps with the youth group that took her to Israel last year on a bursary...
this is something she choose, and is happy doing it, she is with great people, religious guidance, and even though I know she is stupid enough sometimes to go against all the education I gave her and do drugs...I know she is not that stupid to jeopardise this job, she is working with 4 to 6 years old...so, no drugs for quiet a while now...

so, that's the core of all, with lots of other little things I need to deal with but have no energy or wish to....just wanted to come explain...
I need to make time to visit your fabulous galleries which I have the delight on seeing when am on the GSO blog duty... and also see if I can catch up with the challenges too...my guest spots will be done end of August but I'm hoping to be able to come a bit more often even in the next few weeks....

I honestly miss you girls.....so hope to make time this weekend to go read all those (over 100!!!) beautiful words in my pages and the messages.

I have to say: I really,really don;t get how the ones of you who are in multiple stores/teams do it....I don't have not even half of what some of you have to deal with (like day jobs/small children/a house/ a husband!!!!) and I seem to be chained to the computer...and that is ONLY scrapping and posting...not chatting in any forums....
anyway,
I miss you and hope to sort myself out in the weekend...I have my very first Dare on Friday!!!!! yayayyyyyy!!!!!! am nervous!!!!
Super huge huggzzz everyone!!!!

:hippie:

 

[sabdesbois]

Welcome back Cynthia!
It looks like you had to go through a lot of hard things. I am so sorry for you.
But hey! it may be better in the next weeks and I am happy to see you again here.
Hope it is going to be quieter for you.

 

[Nickel]

Great to hear something from you! It seems that you have very hard times. I hope al is going to the best and I hope you get some rest.

 

[clarabear]

Oh my!! That is a whole lot of stress to be handling. Sounds like you are fighting hard to come out on top. Sending prayers and warm thoughts for you. Hugs!!

 

[taxed4ever]

Hey Cynthia... you know what they say, that was does not kill you makes you stronger!! You must be ironwoman by now!! Sending you all of my loving thoughts and hope that the stress in your life lessens very quickly! Baby steps girl, Baby steps!! :hug:

 

[faerywings]

I am with you on the baby steps, like Trudy said!!
Cynthia-- I am going to go all "Mommy" on you and tell you what you already know-- You MUST take very special care of yourself. if you aren't as physically strong as possible, everything else will fall to peices. (And yes, the O-Fam is laughing and calling me a hypocrite, I am sure LOL)
Lots of hugs and love to you and strength and hope for Sarita.

 

[petey111]

Big hugs woman. I am glad the challenges seem to be coming down a bit.

 

[Adryane]

So much to deal with! Take care of yourself so that you are better able to deal with all these issues. I am glad S is doing better. Can't wait to see your first Dare!! Big hugs coming your way.

 

[hondachicc]

BIIIIG HUGS :hug: to you Cynthia....I sooooo know a lot of what you are dealing with!! My daughter has kept me in a pickle for years and years!!! Like the others ladies said..you must take care of you...because you are no good to anyone else if you don't...I have learned this the very very hard way!!! Not that I always take that great care of me now...but I am better than I was!! I HAVE TO SCRAP!! I HAVE TO!! it's my sanity....and taking photos!!! I shove all the housework, and anything else that gets in the way of my hobbies when I know I need to do it....it's all there when I am finished for the day :mrgreen: So you keep on scrappin baby!!! Chat when you can...these ladies all know I don't have that much time to chat either...but I try to get in as much as I can....

 

[timounette]

Big Hugs Cinthia ! Take care

 

[ptabbert]

Glad to see you post. Hope things get easier for you!

 

[wombat146]

oh big hugs Cynthia! you sure have been through the ringer of late so hopefully its all clear sailing ahead for you! good for you for not giving up scrap completely, no doubt it has helped you stay sane over the last few months! just happy to see you back!!!