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Daily Ooo's Thursday October 29

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faerywings

The Loopy-O
CHEERY O
Well ladies, you said it was ok....
why don't you grab some coffee or tea and a comfy chair? - this is going to be long and rambling.

lets see-- I woke up feeling crappy- I didn't sleep good from all of the craziness from the day before. I was nervous about the mammo, plus all of the Ex-BF stuff was kinda flipping me out. Not in a bad way, but bittersweet. Then add in the Holiday GC thing (I decided to sign up. If it eases the burden a bit, it is worth it, and next year when things are better for us, I will be able to help someone else).... just a rough morning.

So I meet my BFF for lunch, I give her my sob story, then she gives me hers. I was teasing her that I was going to bring a timer since we had limited time- that way we could take turns LOLOL!
A lot of my insecurities came out in our discussion- and she gets all of that. She has been my BFF since we were in grade school. So yeah, we both got emotional.

Then off to Chilton for the mammo. After they take the films, and I try to relax, they come in and bring me in to see the dr. Now I know that I am not just getting sent home with a "come back next year/6 months." They don't know what is causing the microcalcifications and I need to get a biopsy done. A stereostatic biopsy, anyone have any experience with that??

They told me very nicely that 80% of all calcs are benign, but if I fall into the 20%, then I will have caught i early and it would be a non-invasive cancer. As the nurse took me for a "tour" of the biopsy room, she was telling me to not worry, that even worst case scenario I would not need a mastectomy, I felt so bad for her, I think she was really trying to reassure me, but it was like whoa!!!! Don't say the "C" word, even if it is most likely not!

I get home and have to now call my mom. She ends up crying and I beg her to please get a mammo for herself. For me. For Caitlyn. I told her that they ask me about family history and I think it finally hit her, that I *need* to know.
Then Cait comes in- I had the door closed but the silly dog pushed it open -and she heard the word biopsy and wanted to know what was going on. I told her a bit, then she comes back asking if I I have cancer, if am going to die. (A couple of years ago one of her good friend's mom found out she had cancer and w/in weeks, she passed- I know that is what she was thinking). So I have to explain more.

By this point I am fried F.R.I.E.D.!!! And I hop onto FB to go shoot people in Mafia Wars LOL and I have another msg from the Ex-BF. Heart wrenching. I am emailing back and forth with my BFF who is freaking out on both bits of news. I am freaking out over everything.

So I did what every girl shoudl then do. I grabbed my book and a nice glass of wine, and relaxed while Cait and Gary cooked dinner. We watched some more of the Monty Python documentary and then a Flying Circus and then I went to bed!

I didn't sleep so good - go figure....

Now I am tired, and I need to get my butt going so I can get the kids to school and off to work.....

Thanks for listening! (Reading!) And to everyone who made it through all this, here's a glass of wine for ya- Yellow Tail Merlot. mmmm!

Signing off,
LMM
(Little Miss Munchhausen)
 
Oh Chris. I'm sorry that you didn't get your answer yesterday. But hang in there my friend. Have they scheduled the biopsy yet? I know the waiting is torturous.

Not much going on here. Kids got their Halloween costumes, Shaun worked on spelling words, I had a session with the personal trainer and that's all the time that there was. Sydney wanted me to show her something else on the piano but it was bedtime. So she slipped down the stairs while I was tucking Shaun into bed and I heard her playing the scales, just as I had shown her the night before. She was so proud. I think that piano lessons are probably just around the corner. :-)

Tonight should have some free time to catch up in the gallery. I hope. Only swimming lessons and spelling word practice and reading. But before any of that can happen, a long day at work. I need Cozumel!!!
 
hey girlies!!

Ohhhh Chris, I am sooo with you!!! I haven't slept all week...I can't figure out if it's because Mr Gorgeous is in CA or if I just have too much stress in my life right now, or what????? LOL!!! Anyway, I'm feeling your angst right now, too!!! {{{{hugs}}}} for both of us!! :) I'm soo thankful you have your bff to help you carry the burdens in person!! I know you know we are all here for you, too, but an IRL person always helps! I played with my BFF yesterday too and she gets me too!! Thank goodness for girlfriends, huh?

Linda, we all NEED COZUMEL RIGHT NOW!!! :) So glad you will have some free time tonight! My nights keep getting filled filled filled with online work...which most of the time is delightful. But time consuming! You enjoy the moments, babe!!

Okay...I gotta go get my head on straight. Its sooooo fuzzy right now! i have too much going on, i know it. But I'm not sure how to pare it down. Time to hire an organizer!! (Anyone want to organize me for free?????)

love you all!!!!
 
Chris-I totally understand your feelings about having to have a biopsy. I haven't had one myself but have dealt with lots of patients that have. It is so good that you're getting one, if anything for peace of mind. And hopefully now your mom will get a mammo, maybe this is God's way of making that happen! Here's some info for ya:

'Calcifications are one of the findings that can be seen on your mammogram. These are very small bits of calcium can appear within the soft tissue of your breast. Calcifications are not breast cancer. These aren't always a sign of breast cancer. Sometimes calcifications are an indication of a precancerous condition. They appear as white dots on your mammogram.

Some benign causes will make calcifications show up on a mammogram:
  • old injury to breast tissue, natural wear and tear
  • mastitis, or inflammation caused by a breast infection
  • calcium collected inside a dilated milk duct
  • calcium mixed with fluid in a benign breast cyst
  • powders, ointments or deodorants deposit calcium on the skin
  • radiation treatment for breast cancer
  • calcification in the arteries within your breast
  • calcifications in a fibroadenoma (benign growth)'
Just know you aren't alone, we're all praying for you that this is all ok and this gives them a baseline so that when you go back, probably in 6 months, they have something to compare to :).

big huge tight squeezy (((((HUGS)))))
 
Hi all! Sounds like everyone is busy, busy! I'm trying to get my scrappin' mojo on. DH and I were arguing a bit last night so I slacked on scrappin'...then I took a sleeping pill last night so I'd actually rest and boy did I! I didn't get up other than to wake DH at 5:10 then I went back to sleep til 10! I feel like I could sleep more!

LindaS and Sally, try not to work too hard! I'll tty all later! Love and hugs!
 
Well, I came running over here because I remembered that daylight savings time is coming up which would mean that it is my turn for the world to revolve around me BUT after reading Chris's post I'm thinking I can forgo my turn for now and let you keep the world at least for a little while. Dang it.

So...online friends stink. I'm not liking that I can't give real hugs when they seem so necessary sometimes. Ugh!! Chris I am totally thinking of you today and wig I could come over and give you a big fat hug. It actually pains me that I can't. I'm sure everything will be fine. I know for you it doesn't seem cool but the stereotactic biopsies are kinda cool. I'll see if I can get you some good info today. It depends if I can get ahold of my husband or not. He works right by the Mammo department so he can probably get some good stuff. We'll see. The military usually has some hidden funds and so they have some cool stuff hidden around. Anyway, I don't know the particulars but to get the point of entry it is very exact because it comes from several different directions rather than just using ultrasound which they use for larger areas. Calcifications are much smaller than say a cyst so everything needs to be much more exact and precise. That is what I know about it. My hospital has technologists but not an actual department so it is harder for me to get info myself. So, I'll see what I can get for you. NO GOOGLE!!!!!! I'm glad you decided to go with the holiday gc card thing. sorry i yelled at you about it. So...sending you some big stupid internet squishy eye popping hugs since I can't give you real ones until next year. I am pouting about it. I hope today is a better day for you. If not then throw things. Preferably soft things if people are around and if people aren't around things that make a lot of noise. It helps.

So, today I am still feeling like crap. It feels like I ate a cactus. If I had a fever I would think I had swine...but no fever...so just a head cold. I know a few people with the swine crap. It sucks. So that's all I have going on with my day. Well, that's not true. DH and I went to Ethan's conferences. he is doing really well. He has a great teacher who is very nurturing to Ethan's personality, which is awesome. Ethan is spunky to say the least and very excited. He loses out on things with her but it turns out to be a positive in many ways. He's going to be reading with the next grade level up which should be interesting. I think that will start in the next couple of weeks. He is such a bright kid he is just so all over the place sometimes. I am glad his teacher seems to not be distracted by his behavior and is able to work with that. It seems to be a good fit for him. Yay!!

So, let's see who else is here...

Linda - that is cool about the piano. I have Ethan in piano lessons. He really likes it. It supposedly helps with their reading and stuff too. That is very cool. I love the things kids sneak out to do. When they are that age they never sneak out to do the bad things always the sweet things. It is awesome. Good vacations sure do spoil you don't they??

Sally, Sally, Sally!! What are we going to do with you? You just never stop. I think that is your secret. If you just keep moving you don't realize you should stop. Smart lady. I hope you get some sort of organization figured out. I wouldn't know where to start. I can't even get my own life organized much less your whirlwind life. LOL!! YOu make it work though. Just keep spinning and everything will land somewhere I am sure and remember that's why we had children so that they can pick up the pieces...or at least that's what we keep telling Ethan. LOL!! He hates that.

Dawn - I had a thought for you and your DH. Does he sleep on his stomach or back. If he sleeps on his stomach...he should get a massage bed. Not a cheapo one but a decent one. Unless of course he sleeps on his back...then never mind. Ignore me.

Well, I have been reading all sort sof stuff on FB about sleep and decided I can't take it and am headed home to sleep. I am done. Sayonara!! NiteyNite!! Off to bed for me. It was actually funny because I walked into the lunch room and they were talking about people being bad about pain and not being able to handle pain and doing what they were supposed to to get through recovery for surgery and stuff so I said..."speaking of weenies...I am going home." So, off to home I go.
 
Oh girls....not much computer time til tonight...and I have spent it all in Sue C. gallery!!! goodness...that's a jammed packed gallery!!!!!!!!!!!

LindaS....PROPS to you for tracking this thing this week!! My hats off to you!!:D

Love:

Chris...I hate that you are having to go through all this stuff..biopsy..but seriously...my mom went throught the exact same thing...if it eases your mind at all..and it was just nothing...thank goodness...and I just know in my heart it will all be okay!! (((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) and wow wow about the old BF....I would die!!! Any more updates?? and WILL ALWAYS BE LISTENING!!!!!

LindaS...woot for piano lessons!!! I had them as a kid...hated them!! but I so envy those who can play!! My dad has 100% of the musical talent in our family...too bad I or my brother didn't inherit any of it...He plays anything with strings on it...and I mean ANYTHING....he also plays by ear...no music sheets..it's really awesome!! so what costumes did the kids get??? I love to see kids dressed up...Cameran is trying to convince me to!! LOL!!

Sally...I am sorry you are so stressed right now!! A busy life with kids can be so stressing...I do have this to offer...as they grow up and you become less busy with "their" lives...things will even out and you will then be able to appreciate the stress you lived through to help them become such wonderful adults!! ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) my sweet friend!!! If I lived close to you, I would be right on that organzing job!!!! :) Try to sleep better, it will definately help!!

Dawn....I hear ya on the sleeping pill...when I take something...it knocks me way out too!!! Tell DH that he needs not be arguing with you...I have so been loving all your mojo!! You have inspired me quite a bit lately!!! ((((((HUGS)))))))) I luv ya girlie!!!

Clara...I am sorry for giving you a hard time all day!! ;) It's only because I love you:p I am wishing I could come take care of you!! I am a helper and care taker by nature...and you have a point about online friends...wanna jump through the screen and just do more!!!!! I told you on FB what to do for that throat...IT WORKS!! (for those of you who did not see...mix honey, lemon, and Jack Daniels...it tastes really nasty but it really really soothes the throat...my mother has never drank aloholic beverages a day in her life, but she did this for us) And if Ethan is anything like you...yeah...I would definately say he is absolutely a bright child!!! ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))

so my day...was busy....very busy....my babies kept me hopping and I had so much house work...got a lot done today though...I am not wanting anything this weekend..so I can RUN around!!! GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!! WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok...I am out!! LOVE YOU ALL!!:p
 
My gosh the gallery is just fantastic!!! I'm awed by all of the talent!

UGH, just a little vent from me....DH is making all of these comments....we're in the process of doing away with our cell phone plan and going to prepaid as we don't use them all that much anyway...I found what I thought at first was a good deal (this was last night) and he said "it's too expensive for someone who doesn't even work". Then got upset with me because I was upset about his comment. Then tonight I was starting to say "the only thing i want for Christmas is..." and he said "oh, you think we're going to have a Christmas this yr?" I lost it. We'll make it just fine on one income, we've cut back in several areas, but he won't let it go. Oh, and last night he said "I guess I'll have to take off one day next wk to go to the unemployment office and find out what is going on since you won't"....ARGH.

Ok, I'm done. sorry
 
Linda - Don't be sorry for giving me a hard time. I love banter. It cracks me up. Ugh!! My throat hurts so bad. I wish I had some Jack Daniels. I'd be willing to try anything. DH is making me tea with all the other stuff right now with some nyquil. then work tomorrow is debatable. I can't even talk. Blah!!! life is sucking for me right now, but i'll get better.

chris - i talked to dh about getting that info but he wasn't able to get it today. he got all upset on your behalf though. he started going on about how you should get a breast mri instead of just a mammo and a mammo stereotactic biopsy and that you should have it all done in mammo, so i was explaining how your coverage was through medicaid and that it was very unlikely that it would be covered and he got all mad because it was a better procedure blah blah blah. It was kinda sweet of him. He likes to complain that we have crappy covereage but he doesn't understand that we have really good coverage he just is locked into using the military facility, which sucks. I'm not locked in and our coverage is awesome. So, hearing the otherside of healthcare was kinda good for him and it was good to hear him get worked up about people not being able to get the bestest healthcare options just because they ask for it. Not that using Mammo is a bad option, he's just an MRI snob since he works in MRI. If that makes sense. So, hopefully he'll be able to walk over to the Mammo department tomorrow and get you some info.
 
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