clarabear
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It is after midnight and I have been such a spaz on the dailies I wanted to get in here and say hey to everyone. I feel like I have been neglecting all of my fave people. Sad!!
I have been super stressed out lately. I stay up way too late and don't get enough sleep so then I am cranky in the morning (and yet here I am, late at night posting away). Addie is, well, I don't know what. I don't know what to do with her right now. She's not defiant but she just will not, under any circumstances, mind. She seems to just be so sure the world revolves around her and no punishment makes any difference at all. I just don't know what to do with her. I still haven't gotten Ethan in to see someone yet. Waiting on paperwork. Soon. It took us 6 hours to do school. He just has to check on the dog, then he just has to check on his sister, then he just has to...and then...it never stops all day long. Then you throw my husband into that who makes comments that I take as judgemental and I am a mess.
Of course to top it all off we are still waiting for the call from Derek's mom that D's grandfather has passed. It is eminent. Today Derek came home and and was acting all weird and kept just standing there and I was freaking out thinking something had happened and he's a guy so it doesn't even occur to him he's acting like a spaz. Ugh!!! Then this weekend we still have tickets to see DMB who I am dying to see in Charlottesville so badly. The town where he began. I've wanted to see him play there forever but we spent all the money for the concert to go up to Cleveland and have had no hits on the concert on Craigslist. Ugh!! And we need that money so that we can travel wherever we need to when we do get that call from Derek's mom. I'm just a mess.
Ugh!!! So, I saw a gratefulness post so I need to refocus now and stop venting and find good in my life. Meltdown time is over. Morning will bring a new day. Ethan has choir, which I don't think I will have him continue after this session. I just don't think it is all that cool and they took forever to get to singing songs. We don't have a lot of money to spend so I would rather spend it on something else, ya know? I want to get Ethan into rock climbing and Addie into dance. That is the plan for Christmas anyway.
So, I am trying to figure out what I am going to do once May rolls around. I know it seems a long way off for most but I need a plan by then for work. We are currently living on my unemployment so we need to have a plan as to what is next when that runs out. Do I work, do I open a coffee stand, what do I do? We are still waiting on Derek's promotion which seems to be never coming. Every time I try and talk about it with Derek, he gets all annoyed. I just need to start planning. Putting together a business plan is a lot of work if he's not going to support it, ya know? Hopefully he'll know exactly what he needs for school very soon. I think I need to just make a plan and start heading that direction.
Alright...enough blubbering. I hope everyone has a fantastic day. Wednesday is my favorite day of the week. :dance: Hugs!!
I have been super stressed out lately. I stay up way too late and don't get enough sleep so then I am cranky in the morning (and yet here I am, late at night posting away). Addie is, well, I don't know what. I don't know what to do with her right now. She's not defiant but she just will not, under any circumstances, mind. She seems to just be so sure the world revolves around her and no punishment makes any difference at all. I just don't know what to do with her. I still haven't gotten Ethan in to see someone yet. Waiting on paperwork. Soon. It took us 6 hours to do school. He just has to check on the dog, then he just has to check on his sister, then he just has to...and then...it never stops all day long. Then you throw my husband into that who makes comments that I take as judgemental and I am a mess.
Of course to top it all off we are still waiting for the call from Derek's mom that D's grandfather has passed. It is eminent. Today Derek came home and and was acting all weird and kept just standing there and I was freaking out thinking something had happened and he's a guy so it doesn't even occur to him he's acting like a spaz. Ugh!!! Then this weekend we still have tickets to see DMB who I am dying to see in Charlottesville so badly. The town where he began. I've wanted to see him play there forever but we spent all the money for the concert to go up to Cleveland and have had no hits on the concert on Craigslist. Ugh!! And we need that money so that we can travel wherever we need to when we do get that call from Derek's mom. I'm just a mess.
Ugh!!! So, I saw a gratefulness post so I need to refocus now and stop venting and find good in my life. Meltdown time is over. Morning will bring a new day. Ethan has choir, which I don't think I will have him continue after this session. I just don't think it is all that cool and they took forever to get to singing songs. We don't have a lot of money to spend so I would rather spend it on something else, ya know? I want to get Ethan into rock climbing and Addie into dance. That is the plan for Christmas anyway.
So, I am trying to figure out what I am going to do once May rolls around. I know it seems a long way off for most but I need a plan by then for work. We are currently living on my unemployment so we need to have a plan as to what is next when that runs out. Do I work, do I open a coffee stand, what do I do? We are still waiting on Derek's promotion which seems to be never coming. Every time I try and talk about it with Derek, he gets all annoyed. I just need to start planning. Putting together a business plan is a lot of work if he's not going to support it, ya know? Hopefully he'll know exactly what he needs for school very soon. I think I need to just make a plan and start heading that direction.
Alright...enough blubbering. I hope everyone has a fantastic day. Wednesday is my favorite day of the week. :dance: Hugs!!
