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Daily Ooo's: Tuesday, February 8

faerywings

faerywings

The Loopy-O
CHEERY O
hi everyone! How are ya all doing this morning/afternoon?
Hope that my cyber-soup is helping all of you sickies!

Today is a special day here- Its Vicki's birthday, so make sure you pop in and wish her a good one.
Happy birthday vicki!
yay!

As for me, I am in a bit of a funk. In the last 24 hours, I got potentially not-so-good news about both kids' health.
Caitlyn has scoliosis, just like I do. Last year her curve was at 16*. This set of x-rays was at 23* Most drs want to start bracing at 20* especially if they are at the beginning of their growth spurt in adolescence. I was in a brace for 4 years and it was a horrible experience for me. I know that braces have developed in the last 20 years, but it is not what I want for her. I told Gary last night that i don't know if I can separate out being strong and positive for her, and the hell that i went through. I was teased, felt very self-conscious, and that is when my anorexia began. It was a very very difficult time for me. I don't know what to do about how I feel. i am sure when it comes down to it, I'll be able to suck it up and be strong, but right now, I am tired of having to do that.

This morning i got an email from Scott's Lyme dr. regarding his last set of blood work. He came back positive for babesia and erlichia. he has been treated for babs and had been negative for at least over a year. Erlichia-- he tested positive once, in 2008, but every test has been neg. since then. Now his IvG and IgG are both positive.

with Lyme bacteria, the tests measure antibodies.If the immune system is suppresed, whoch happens with Late stage Lyme, it isn't able to recognize the bacteria as such and doesn't produce antibodies. I don't know if this is the case with babs and erlichia. If it is just antibodies, then it could be a good thing that is showing his immune system is getting stronger. But it is also possible that he has two active infections.

I am overwhelmed. And I have been working so well in the Real of Denial lately, because I feel like I can't take much more. everything is just too much.

Anyway- sorry for dumping all of this on you. I am having a hard time talking to friends and family right now about a lot of things. Like I said-- Realm of Denial....

Thanks for listening.......(reading.....)

I am going to try and pick myself up, make my to-do list for the day and see if I can figure out how to cope with all of this.

loves you all :love:
 
Laurie take care of that knee. if it is a slight tear now, you don't want to let it get worse.

Trudy, I am sorry to hear about Aunt Lorna. I hope that her time left here is filled with love and peace.
How are your splints? That is nice that you have a pretty drive at least. None of our 2-hour-away drs are like that.

Kayleigh- sounds like the perfect morning you had! YMG is a keeper!!!

My doggie is whining at me..... and the kids need to get to school
xoxo
 
morning all - hugs, prayers and good thoughts coming your way Chris

I got my walk in but not my exercise- will do when I get home-- check for confirmation tonight- I need to be accountable- yikes!! Did I really just say that. I will watch my knee- so far seems to better, but I will not let it go too long. Off to shower and work- back later for personals!

But Happy Bday Vicki!!
 
Good morning! Not sure there is anything so good about it. i'm tired...it's morning. Drinking coffee. Yesterday was a good day...for me anyway. DH...not so much. I guess it wasn't really his bad day, he was just along for the ride. He went with one of his soldiers to S. Carolina to pick up his car. His last duty station was Germany so his car was shipped and he had to pick it up in Charleston. Well, they got there only to find out that the alternator belt was missing (???????????) and that he had a flat tire. He couldn't get it fixed right away because he had rented a car and hadn't planned on that. when he called the place that had his car they didn't bother to mention either issue. So they spent several hours in the rain working all of that out and got back significantly later than planned. Although my day was good, the craziness made me forget about both of the kids evening activities. ugh!!! Oooops!

So, yesterday I went and did my Red Cross orientation so that I can start volunteering at the hospital. I really need to start taking some x-rays again. It has been a long time. I need to keep myself employable, plus if and when I decide to start working again I will be in the know about positions there. getting on with the government is never a bad thing. So, we'll see. But it was great having a mission for the day. Derek has to ride his motorcycle on Friday so maybe that will be the beginning of things. We'll see.

My upstairs heat is getting fixed today...suppsedly. I'll believe it when I see it. But I am worried about my electric bill so this will be awesome. then just waiting for the ds heat still.

So, that's all. How about some love...

Chris - My word. When it rains it pours in your world. I hope you get some answers about Scott's illness stuff soon. I remember when he tested positive before and you were so worried. So, what do they do now about it? Now as far as Cait...BREATH!!!!!! Like you said braces have come a long way. I know that when you had them it sent you into a bad cycle and that sucks but on the other hand think about the pain that you could have in your later years if it weren't taken care of. I take x-rays of people all the time who have scoliosis that was never treated. It is unreal what it does to the inside of the body. Their lungs are mishapen and their abdomens are odd...and this is on people that don't look abnormal when I look at them. Then there is the other route...the adults who have surgery to correct it because of the pain and issues it causes...first of all it is a very dangerous surgery and second it is a very hard surgery on your body. So, I guess you just have to do the check and balances in your mind to get you through this but most importantly...talk to Cait. She might think it is cool and be all good about the whole thing alleviating all of your fears. If you would like...send me a PM and let me know...I can have Derek contact some orthopedic guys about braces to find out what is reccomended. If you lived nearer to Cleveland he has some ortho docs he used to work for that he thought were amazing. And as you go along if you are unsure about anything I can have him do some research about things too. So, I'll be praying for you that you can find wisdom and comfort during your decision making processes. Big hugs!! It is never fun to put your kids through situation that was such a horrible one for yourself...even if everything tells you it will different...it is impossible to not be concerned. Giant squeezy hugs for you!! :hug:

Laurie - you walked...isn't that exercise? You are so much better than me. I am a bad person (well in the exercise world anyway). I'll be a part of the Laurie cheering section instead.
 
Okay....so the other day Clara sent me a message to check on me and see how I was doing....she said it seemed like I was sort of FAKING IT to get through a funk....I HAD TO LAUGH....makes me think of that Sienfeld episode....anyway.....goes to show you that my imaginary friends know me too well!!!!

So I am going to throw out a little of what I have been dealing with...

Traci has been off her meds for months now(for those of you who don't know....she is bipolar)...and it's been a NIGHTMARE!!! I have done nothing but worry my butt off about her and those kids....Christmas was a tragedy!!!! I really am about to the point of trying to take the kids. On top of this...you all know about my Mom getting sick at New Years....she is still not doing very well....she is better...but she still feels bad all the time....I am in OVERTIME worry over her....then there is my MIL.....her dimentia is worsening and since I am the one at home...I am the one catching all the crap from her. She calls me on an average of 20 times a day....THIS IS NOT AN EXAGGERATION!!! It's horrible!!!! Nothing I say or do will calm her...I have these kids...so I can't go run to her aide....Just because I don't work outside the home, doesn't mean I am able to do anything....I have tried to tell the family that something needs to be done....I think that this past weekend broke a hole in the ice..so to speak.....she drove everyone in the family totally nuts....so I think we are having a family meeting this weekend to try and make some decisions.

So if I seem like I am "faking it" :pound: to you guys....I am!!! I have not been this stressed out in over four years!!!!

Thanks for listening.....

I love you all!!!
 
LINDA!!!!!! We love to see you in here and are always happy to hear how you are doing even if it sucks. I know that eventually things will get better...I just wish eventually would happen tomorrow for you. :hug: Here is a big ole Clara eye-popping squeezy hug...Just for you and a ::grouphug from all of us. Just don't forget that we are here for you just like you have been there for us so often.
 
Oh My Goodness, my "O" family is falling apart!!!!!:Cry: What is going on here?? I wish there was something I could do to take all of this bad stuff away!!

Chris - Big :hug: for you sweetie! I know that you can get through this ordeal, you are a very strong woman and what a wonderful friend you have in Clara, who gives you such good advice! She is right you know!! Things have come a long way and the best thing to do is be honest with your daughter and discuss it with her. You will make the right decisions!!

Nana Linda - You know how we all love you my U.S. sister, what a trying time for you also! You are getting it from all sides!! It should not be up to you to take care of your MIL, that is what she has children for and they are the ones that should be taking responsiblitly for her!! My SIL's are the same way they think I should be the one to take care of the In-Laws because I already went through this with my Mother and helped take care of her then I should know what I'm doing and they can't be bothered to get off their lazy asses and help out. (opps did say that outloud!!) :sorry: Anyway, you have enough to worry about with your daughter and grandkids and your mother's well being!! You should be concentrating on only that right now. You are an amazing person, but you can't solve everyones problems Linda, you have to say no sometimes!! Please know that we all love you and we are here for you, even if its just a shoulder to cry on. :kiss: :hug:

Clara- What a good friend you are to Chris and Nana! Good advice girlie!! I am happy to hear that you are finally getting your heat fixed upstairs, its about time!! You must be excited to get going with your volunteering and I hope its not long before you get that job with the government that you want!! Hope the rest of your day goes smoothly!!

Laurie - glad to hear that your knee is feeling a bit better, you are such a disciplined person for keeping up with your excercise!! I must start walking more and getting back to the WII for some extra excercise!! Started weight watchers on line and hope to take of some of this extra weight that menopause has so kindly given me! Have a great day!

OBTW my appointment at the dentist went very well and he said that I am doing remarkably well, have to go back in 2 more weeks, but hopefully that will be the last time!! :wave:
 
Awwwwww Trudy!! You are the sweetest! My heat is only half fixed unfortunately. Can you believe two different companies are fixing it? And I'm actually not so sure it is fixed. It was a little warm still a little bit ago. I called my housing manager and her nd the owner are just as frustrated and upset. I did find out I can get reimbursed for the heater we had to buy though which is nice. I just have to take in the receipt. I am so glad that your jaw is finally getting better. That is sooooooo awesome and I'm sure you are jumping up and down. I'm surprised you have to diet after the liquid diet you have been on, you poor thing.
 
Chris................((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) sweetie!!! I am so sad for you!! I know you are heartbroken with all this news!!!! I will be praying for all of you!!!! I so wish I had more than words for you!!! I know this feeling of TOO MUCH...as that is about where I am....but maybe you need to just go somewhere and let it all go!!! I told Mike Sunday that is what I needed to to....even a drive for a few hours just to cry...yell...scream....whatever to get it all out!!!! Would you like to drive with me??? we can yell together!! :rant::rant:

Laurie....so proud of you and your excercising....glad the knee feels better...but I agree...do not let it go too long!!!

Clara....thanks for the hugs and support sweetie!!! I need those big squishy hugs!!! Yay for getting more heat fixed...and I am so proud of you and your volunteering at the Red Cross!!! That is fabulous!!! Laughing a little about forgetting the kids activities...this sounds like something I would do right now!!! I am so forgetful any more....I guess I have so many things running through my head all the time....

Trudy....YAY for a good dentist report!!!! and thank you too sweetie for your support!!! I think if I only had to deal wtih one thing at a time...I would be okay...I think it's when my Mom got sick that really took me for a turn.....especially after I had been sick for as long as I was....There seems to be no time regroup from anything!!!
 
Hugs nana back tight. I had a feeling that was up with you.:( I am sorry this is happening to you too. I wish i could let go and cry. I am back to holding it all down... afraid if I start to cry, it will get ugly fast. YKWIM? Yes, of course you do....

Why is the what moms want the most- to be there, to protect our kids, to want them to never be hurt -- why is that the hardest and most impossible thing there is?

Sorry for rambling here.

Trudy- spot on, hon- My O-Fam and Clara (yes, she really is always right LOL) and big ol' eye poppy hugs are just what the O-Doctor ordered.

::grouphug
 
HUGS ALL AROUND!!!!!!

Chris -- She will be SO THANKFUL later for going the brace route -- I wish I had! My doctor is all pro-yoga-skippity-doo-dah and thought I'd be fine without the brace... uhmmmm no, now I have trigger point induced migraines and impacted discs because of it.
Ugh, that sucks about gary!!!! I don't know enough about lyme yet (other than the conspiracy theory that the gov't invented it) but that sounds AWFUL!

Linda -- Aw honey!!!!! I know it's a hard thing to think about, but you've got to do what you've got to do! Those kids come first, she needs to get her act together, and just being off those meds a day is a mega huge problem!! My best friend in highschool's mom is bipolar, and her mom projected the disease onto her and had a psychiatrist convinced my friend had it too... so from middle school through her first year in college she was constantly a human test tube of drugs for a disease she didn't have. It seemed like they were always trying to find the right meds for my friend when it came down to the fact that she wasn't bipolar! Bipolar people like her mom can be very manipulative, I'd hate to see something similar happen to those grandbabies of yours!

I'll be praying for both of you amazing women and your families!!!! BIG HUGE MEGA HUGS ALL AROUND!!!!!!!!!!


Sorry for the silence yesterday and this morning, we had the cable TV and internet switched over from the in-laws to us, and along the way things got screwed up because comcast missed two steps. It's resolved now, but we've been without internet and half our TV channels!

Fever completely gone, it came back one night before bed, but went away with a single dose of tylenol. The only remnants of the flu now are my cough and snots! I'm back to eating almost normal, Jeff got me my favorite pizza yesterday from my vegetarian-PETA-member-punk chic-crazy-high-school-days from before we had met. As a family we've kind of decided to go to being almost completely vegetarian, because of health and meat costs more money because it's so darn good! So I kicked that decision off with my pizza craving. Meat might be a once a week thing, but not with every meal.

I need to go wake up Jeff -- but before I go -- does anyone want a Pinterest invite? I think I have five or so left, idk, it doesn't say.
 
Hey girlies...

just popping in here to reiterate what everyone has said to each other!!

Chris, you and NanaLinda are two AMAZING women!!! Both of you have our familial permission to go somewhere and watch some gut-wrenching movie (like "Return to Me"...that one always works for me!!!) and cry all of your toxins out!!! You also have my personal permission to run away to Texas and let me care for you both!! :) (Someone needs to buy an Oscraps Lottery Ticket so we can do that for each other!!)

I'm totally praying AND BELIEVING that things will get better and you two will handle them with ease and PEACE!!

I love you both!!
 
faerywings said:
Why is the what moms want the most- to be there, to protect our kids, to want them to never be hurt -- why is that the hardest and most impossible thing there is?
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You need to lock yourself in your room and watch...Finding Nemo!!! I love that even though Dory can't remember a freaking thing she says all these amazingly wise things. The thing I am thinking of is when Marlin is telling her that he promised he wouldn't let anything happen to him. Dory says, "That's a funny thing to promise." Marlin asks "What?" And this is the best part..."Well, you can't never let anything happen to him. Then nothing would ever happen to him. Not much fun for little Harpo." Anyway, I found a bunch of other awesome, totally relevant quotes from the movie so that is my prescription for you...watch Finding Nemo and then "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim."

Nana...you too!!
 
cellomom said:
You also have my personal permission to run away to Texas and let me care for you both!! :) (Someone needs to buy an Oscraps Lottery Ticket so we can do that for each other!!)
If they drive through NC or even near I would meet up with them and drive so they can laugh, freak out and cry and then laugh some more, the whole way. That actually sounds like an amazing trip. Hmmmm...
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But if we made the trip we would all have to wear depends cause we would laugh too much.

Thanks for all the positives about my exercise- I'm really just trying to avoid adding another medication and derail my families bad heart health history (say that 3 times fast!)

Hugs to Nana and Chris- you know I bought a reflex bag (punching bag) in January and although I can't punch for long- the i need break something feeling goes away real quick!

I did my strength training when I got home. Still monitoring my knee - it is not as painful as it was at the beginning of the week.

I need to go get some stuff done- wish I could stay and play
 
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