*small sigh of relief* I have to be honest even though my awake time is still full of stress, I am sleeping a bit better at night. When I wake up (totally normal for me), I am not going into full-blown anxiety. I can usually get myself relaxed enough to fall back asleep within a half hour or so and it is only happening 2-3 times a night. What a difference, I need that! Even this morning, I have been up since a little before 5 but was able to snuggle with W until 6, a much nicer way to start my day.
I never made it back for personals, another day out from under me. Gary hasn't been feeling well for the last several weeks and that takes a huge toll on me physically and mentally. The kids have a tough time with it too and I know that it always stirs up stuff from their childhoods. No one likes walking around on eggshells and I think we all have a touch of PTSD from it. A "touch." hahahaha!!!! Can't even try to describe it that way with a straight face.
For those of you who are newer, before Gary was diagnosed with Lyme he was experiencing severe mental disorders due to his severely inflamed brain. The more that Drs tried to treat him with psych meds, the worse they become. It was terrifying watching him devolve. When he starts to show signs of that happening again, even slightly, it scares that you-know-what out of the rest of us.
Gary started a new abx regimen a few weeks ago and it is possible/likely that it is stirring stuff up. His recent tick bite was also probably contaminated with Bartonella which is what caused much of his mental issues the first time around.
Good times, man... good times... :madgrin:
My good "news" from yesterday was that I made banana bread and I had so many bananas in my freezer that I made a double batch. We have a doz. muffins, a loaf pan, and an 8x8 pan. Correction: We *had." There are 6 muffins already eaten and I am going to have some for my breakfast :hungry:
That took up the majority of my day once I got back from the grocery store. When I walked into the Shop From Home Pickup area, I literally laughed out loud. Every darn cart lined up had a pack of TP in it. haha! I said to the person helping me-- "Looks like everyone is stocking up on TP again." She laughed too, Yup!! I was happy that I got an extra pack last week, just in case. I couldn't get the brand we like best but thin TP is better than no TP!
Not much else happened here yesterday and not much happening today. I have to tidy my office a bit. I finished one scrappage yesterday but I still have so many more to work on for Christopher's album. I have until April to do it but I scrap more and more slowly it seems.
Wishing everyone a happy day!
I never made it back for personals, another day out from under me. Gary hasn't been feeling well for the last several weeks and that takes a huge toll on me physically and mentally. The kids have a tough time with it too and I know that it always stirs up stuff from their childhoods. No one likes walking around on eggshells and I think we all have a touch of PTSD from it. A "touch." hahahaha!!!! Can't even try to describe it that way with a straight face.

For those of you who are newer, before Gary was diagnosed with Lyme he was experiencing severe mental disorders due to his severely inflamed brain. The more that Drs tried to treat him with psych meds, the worse they become. It was terrifying watching him devolve. When he starts to show signs of that happening again, even slightly, it scares that you-know-what out of the rest of us.
Gary started a new abx regimen a few weeks ago and it is possible/likely that it is stirring stuff up. His recent tick bite was also probably contaminated with Bartonella which is what caused much of his mental issues the first time around.
Good times, man... good times... :madgrin:
My good "news" from yesterday was that I made banana bread and I had so many bananas in my freezer that I made a double batch. We have a doz. muffins, a loaf pan, and an 8x8 pan. Correction: We *had." There are 6 muffins already eaten and I am going to have some for my breakfast :hungry:
That took up the majority of my day once I got back from the grocery store. When I walked into the Shop From Home Pickup area, I literally laughed out loud. Every darn cart lined up had a pack of TP in it. haha! I said to the person helping me-- "Looks like everyone is stocking up on TP again." She laughed too, Yup!! I was happy that I got an extra pack last week, just in case. I couldn't get the brand we like best but thin TP is better than no TP!
Not much else happened here yesterday and not much happening today. I have to tidy my office a bit. I finished one scrappage yesterday but I still have so many more to work on for Christopher's album. I have until April to do it but I scrap more and more slowly it seems.
Wishing everyone a happy day!