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I am doin' the fake it til ya make dance today.
I went to bed in a good mood. I was able to get a lot done again yesterday and the family watched A Christmas Story together at night. That is one of the big family traditions. But I have been awake since 4 am after having a dream (nightmare???) that Caitlyn and Brendan got back together and were discussing wedding plans. I guess this is worrying me more than I expected. I have to let it go and trust it will work out for the best. That isn't an easy thing for me. It is putting me in a bad mood.
I can remind myself again and again how smart she is. And I have tangible proof of that. Not that I need it, but I have it. The professor that wants Cait to present the research at a conference took her aside after class to let her know that she nominated Caitlyn for a scholarship. All of Caitlyn's professors gave unanimous support/letters of rec to go with the application. This is HUGE! Even if she doesn't get the scholarship itself, to have her professors submit her name for consideration, it is a true honor. I am so DAMN PROUD of my kids. Sorry for curse-yelling but I can't help it!
I have a few things to tie up around here and then I am cleaning this afternoon. Hopefully, if I keep myself busy enough I won't worry about Cait.
There is literally nothing I can do either way. She knows how I feel. :/
PS: On a funny note, both of my kids want to get drunk with me on the cruise. That will be ... interesting! Hide the hoto:
I am doin' the fake it til ya make dance today.
I went to bed in a good mood. I was able to get a lot done again yesterday and the family watched A Christmas Story together at night. That is one of the big family traditions. But I have been awake since 4 am after having a dream (nightmare???) that Caitlyn and Brendan got back together and were discussing wedding plans. I guess this is worrying me more than I expected. I have to let it go and trust it will work out for the best. That isn't an easy thing for me. It is putting me in a bad mood.
I can remind myself again and again how smart she is. And I have tangible proof of that. Not that I need it, but I have it. The professor that wants Cait to present the research at a conference took her aside after class to let her know that she nominated Caitlyn for a scholarship. All of Caitlyn's professors gave unanimous support/letters of rec to go with the application. This is HUGE! Even if she doesn't get the scholarship itself, to have her professors submit her name for consideration, it is a true honor. I am so DAMN PROUD of my kids. Sorry for curse-yelling but I can't help it!
I have a few things to tie up around here and then I am cleaning this afternoon. Hopefully, if I keep myself busy enough I won't worry about Cait.
There is literally nothing I can do either way. She knows how I feel. :/
PS: On a funny note, both of my kids want to get drunk with me on the cruise. That will be ... interesting! Hide the hoto: