Personal : My Grief Story : Layouts : May 31st : 2024
With my life in much chaos & turmoil...finding time to scrap at all...has been an in & out kinda thing...There are always ideas in my head...but creating time for myself to create & make myself happy or at least...to find some kind of release from my sad feelings...has been fleeting...I guess one can only create based on their own personal experiences & or feelings...Since my Dearest Raymond passed away...He takes up most of my time for feeling so much grief...and my own personal life with much turmoil from personal pain,injuries & just trying to get through each day...is sometimes overwhelming & exhausting...so being able to take time to create...goes to the back burner...as I am just too tired from the day to be able to do this...But,I have recently been creating again...I keep thinking...when will I ever stop creating layouts about my grief...it seems like never...The last many pages I have created...are all about feelings related to and/or about my own personal heart,pain & feelings...
I was inspired by nature's colors of green...some lavender influences...the shades of yellow & the green leaves here...plus the darker shades of grey & black...and the idea of trying to take care of yourself...trying to move forward...but not wanting to forget anything about my life with my Beloved,Ray...My memories are the most precious to me...Clinging to them in my heart & in my mind...& promising to never forget my Beloved Ray....These are real personal challenges...Sometimes I feel guilty...trying to move forward while trying to keep his memories alive...These pages have become important to me...& have become part of my own personal grief & recovery...therapy...xo Rhonda