This is my page for the second art journal challenge of april. As you get it by now, I mostly focus on the journal part, and add some pretty art to it

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(TRANSLATION of my journaling)
When I think about food, I often feel torn between two emotions. On the one hand, there is the undeniable love of food. The colors, flavors and smells are simply amazing. Food is creative, inspiring and can bring people together. Nothing beats the feeling of pride when you take your homemade, fragrant creation out of the oven and can show all your friends what a great chef you are.

But then there is that other side that I would so love to ignore. That side where I hate food. Where the food I love so much seems to threaten me. I'm already obese and that doesn't really make me healthy. The idea of eating out is torture for me because I don't feel comfortable when others see me eating. Except with my husband and children, I always feel watched and judged when I eat, and that makes me uncomfortable. Therefore, I will never eat street food either, for fear of what others would then think about me, afraid that strangers might think I lack self-control. How bad is that?

It's a very complex relationship I have with food. On the one hand, I enjoy it immensely, but on the other hand I feel restricted and trapped by it. I know I need to be more balanced with my eating habits and learn not to judge myself for enjoying food. But it is a difficult struggle and I work every day to accept and love myself regardless of what I eat.