Guess what??????
I'm in Fake it til Ya Make it Mode! Full strength!
I am irritated by and with myself. I have no reason to be so darn mentally tired but I am. Aside from getting up with the dogs overnight, I have been sleeping soundly, dreams and all. OTOH, seriously- stick a fork in me, I am done.
I honestly can't say that I did anything to get my head on straight yesterday which was my one goal. My emotions are on a knife's edge and I got myself in a funk when I was shredding papers- who would think that cleaning out your filing cabinet would make you feel unstable but it was like a trip through a bunch of bad times in my life. Just in one drawer, I found the letters for a campaign I organized to raise awareness for Postpartum Depression, my outpatient plan from the Eating Disorder Recovery Center, and then Scott's psychiatric eval from school when he was in 8th grade. It was all the hits.
On a better note, Scott came over and was able to get a few boxes of things to donate so I think we're up to 5 or 6 large boxes going out. Caitlyn and Tom went to their wedding venue to choose some food options and they will have a tasting there in June for the final menu. My parents are doing a little better and are now back to their regularly scheduled medical problems (gallows humor, don't mind me .
My dad saw his cardiologist and was cleared for the shoulder replacement by him. He has a few more doctors to see for clearance but that was a big one. My mom was given the go-ahead for an angiogram. Because of her kidney failure, they have to have a special process so the contrast dye doesn't further harm the kidney function. Now they have to get everything scheduled and coordinated so they won't be out of action at the same time. Good times!
I made a delicious quiche for dinner. Roasted cauliflower and caramelized onions (thank you FP!!) and I used the leftover smoked cheddar I had from when I made Trudy's asparagus recipe. It was *awesome.*
I was supposed to work this afternoon and I am sort of bummed, sort of relieved. I switched days with another educator so I am going in next week. I would have *loved* to get out of the house today. But it's pouring rain all day so maybe it worked out for the best. Plans as of right now: Pick up groceries, finish packing the boxes for donations, and figure out what to cook for dinner. Thats it.
I wish I was napper- I mentally feel like I could sleep for days even though I know that physically, I'd feel awful if I tried.
So back to Fake it Time!