Hey there and good morning to you!
Somehow, I survived yesterday. Not that it was in question, only in my own head. I am still unsettled and (somewhat) unhappy. I swear I am an emotional sponge. I know I am, know that I am reacting that way, and have no idea how to stop it. pfft.
When we were at the vet the other night, two people had brought dogs in for euthanasia and I got choked up, practically in tears. I am like that with strangers and it's so much worse with the people I love.
Gary and I talked about money and housing and Caitlyn while we were out yesterday. He has so much guilt over being disabled and unable to work so all of this *waved hands around* is affecting him too. He is much better at compartmentalizing than I am. Really--*everyone* is much better at that than I am LOL
Cait and I got into a little bicker-fight, snapping at each other. I had dinner planned out, defrosted the chicken, and had everything ready in my head. At 1 pm, she tells me that Tom is coming for dinner. That would be fine but I had nothing in the house to feed him. Since she is 100% stressed out that made her defensive and then it bloomed from there.
I have to pick up groceries this morning and clean for my friend this afternoon. Do you think if I hide in his Iron Maiden, I can get some peace and quiet?
Yes, he has an Iron Maiden replica in his house.
Really.
On that note:
Somehow, I survived yesterday. Not that it was in question, only in my own head. I am still unsettled and (somewhat) unhappy. I swear I am an emotional sponge. I know I am, know that I am reacting that way, and have no idea how to stop it. pfft.
When we were at the vet the other night, two people had brought dogs in for euthanasia and I got choked up, practically in tears. I am like that with strangers and it's so much worse with the people I love.
Gary and I talked about money and housing and Caitlyn while we were out yesterday. He has so much guilt over being disabled and unable to work so all of this *waved hands around* is affecting him too. He is much better at compartmentalizing than I am. Really--*everyone* is much better at that than I am LOL
Cait and I got into a little bicker-fight, snapping at each other. I had dinner planned out, defrosted the chicken, and had everything ready in my head. At 1 pm, she tells me that Tom is coming for dinner. That would be fine but I had nothing in the house to feed him. Since she is 100% stressed out that made her defensive and then it bloomed from there.
I have to pick up groceries this morning and clean for my friend this afternoon. Do you think if I hide in his Iron Maiden, I can get some peace and quiet?
Yes, he has an Iron Maiden replica in his house.
Really.
On that note:
at your tip!!
STUPID COVID!! My Gary will most likely still go, but he will test himself first to make sure he is negative, he probably won't go to the get together after, he doesn't want to risk getting anyone sick especially his elderly parents or Aunties. At least the internment is outside and he will keep his distance from everyone, but we both feel it is important that one of us should be there to represent our family. I haven't been able to do to much over the past couple of days except sleep A LOT!! It is all I can do to sit here and type this, so I will sign off here and try to return later for personals! Thank you all so much for your care and concern I hope you all stay well, because let me tell you, you do not want this!! Covid is still out there dam it!!