If I could sum up in one phrase what my day was like yesterday it would "Holy-Mood Swings Batman!!!"
What would your phrase be?
Started out with Cait and I having a heart to heart in the car waiting for the school bus about her eating disorder. This time of year triggers it very hard. I can relate 100% to everything she said, I feel like a fat cow ATM. I feel guilty that I seem to have passed all of the crummy things along to her- Lyme, propensity for the ED, scoliosis, and bad skin. I know I gave her a lot of good too so there is that.![Love :love: :love:](/community/data/assets/smilies/t5027.gif)
At the LLMDs office, she "yelled" at me about how I am pushing myself too hard about Christmas. She said that my family wants me to be healthy, not the "perfect gift," which I KNOW!! Broke down b/c I know that if my mom knew how much I was stressing over a gift for her, she would beat me over the head. (Trudy- find that rolling pin smilie for me!!
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She asked me why I felt that I *had* to do these things- cooking, cleaning, baking, shopping- and I felt like a little kid, sitting on the exam table, banging my feet together, all hunched over. I said "Italian-Catholic Guilt."
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While we were waiting to get our blood drawn, Gary started telling me how we (me, really) need to get better diets so we can get better. I got defensive, I try my hardest just to cook simple and cheap dinners for all of us. WTH am I supposed to do now? On the budget I am on?![Mad :mad: :mad:](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
Got home, totally overwhelmed around 1pm. I was going to run out to a couple of stores in town, but did some shopping on Amazon, and found a couple of things for the kids and an 8x8 frame for brother and SIL and they are going to get a Christmas picture of their son that I will scrap. :ranger:
Scott made a really yummy dinner, chicken with garlic and white wine over angel hair and Cait made biscuits. I loooove those kids!!!!!
Today I have to see if I can uncover my DR table. And then recover it with a few more things I need for gift baskets. I hope that my order comes in soon. I will try to bake one batch of bar cookies, that will be easy enough.
Do you have good plans today? Hope so!!!
What would your phrase be?
Started out with Cait and I having a heart to heart in the car waiting for the school bus about her eating disorder. This time of year triggers it very hard. I can relate 100% to everything she said, I feel like a fat cow ATM. I feel guilty that I seem to have passed all of the crummy things along to her- Lyme, propensity for the ED, scoliosis, and bad skin. I know I gave her a lot of good too so there is that.
![Love :love: :love:](/community/data/assets/smilies/t5027.gif)
At the LLMDs office, she "yelled" at me about how I am pushing myself too hard about Christmas. She said that my family wants me to be healthy, not the "perfect gift," which I KNOW!! Broke down b/c I know that if my mom knew how much I was stressing over a gift for her, she would beat me over the head. (Trudy- find that rolling pin smilie for me!!
She asked me why I felt that I *had* to do these things- cooking, cleaning, baking, shopping- and I felt like a little kid, sitting on the exam table, banging my feet together, all hunched over. I said "Italian-Catholic Guilt."
While we were waiting to get our blood drawn, Gary started telling me how we (me, really) need to get better diets so we can get better. I got defensive, I try my hardest just to cook simple and cheap dinners for all of us. WTH am I supposed to do now? On the budget I am on?
Got home, totally overwhelmed around 1pm. I was going to run out to a couple of stores in town, but did some shopping on Amazon, and found a couple of things for the kids and an 8x8 frame for brother and SIL and they are going to get a Christmas picture of their son that I will scrap. :ranger:
Scott made a really yummy dinner, chicken with garlic and white wine over angel hair and Cait made biscuits. I loooove those kids!!!!!
Today I have to see if I can uncover my DR table. And then recover it with a few more things I need for gift baskets. I hope that my order comes in soon. I will try to bake one batch of bar cookies, that will be easy enough.
Do you have good plans today? Hope so!!!