Good morning!
It's cold here this morning but not as bad as yesterday. I am not ready at all for the next few months of late autumn and winter and unfortunately, you are going to be stuck hearing me complain. Feel free to
I don't know if I mentioned but I had been feeling physically as well as mentally crummy the last couple of weeks. To the point I was freaking myself out that I was having a heart attack. A several-week long heart attack LOL My neck has been stiff for months and my jaw and shoulder/arm are also sore. Googling symptoms surprisingly (wink) didn't reassure me. Monday was awful- I felt sick the entire day, aside from the hour at Coloring Crew. I realized yesterday that I have been having low-key panic attacks. Or severe anxiety attacks. Not sure if there is a crossover between the two. The last couple of months have been so stressful and the issues with my parents were the breaking point.
When the lightbulb hit yesterday (took me long enough, better late than never ), I decided that I *have to* put self-care at the top of my priority list. So I am stating it here which will force me to be accountable to myself. Otherwise, I won't survive the next few months in one piece.
One of my goals is to get back into yoga regularly. I don't drink as much water when I am cold so I know being dehydrated is playing into the crummy feeling. I am going to make sure I sit with my therapy light on every morning. And I have to ask for help around the house.
I also know that if I don't take care of myself now -physically/mentally/emotionally- I am going to end up like my mom. I don't want to feel bitter for the rest of my life at things I could have changed right now.
Thanks for listening to me ramble. ♥
Keeping that in mind, today is going to be a little bit of housework, yoga, and a lot of me-time. I have to call the State again. Gary called yesterday and had no luck. Still no luck finding the spider light holders. I did go into the attic and I did open all of the taped boxes even as I had my tantrum. I have no idea where they could be. Tonight I have leftovers so no worry about what to cook.
*deep breath*
I got this.
xoxoxo