Daily Ooo's: Thursday, July 9

[faerywings]

Hello and Happy happy Thursday! How is the O-Fam today? You can tell that it is summer, it is really quiet in here! I hope that all of you who are checking in but not able to post are doing great and hope to see you all here soon.

I was so darn depressed yesterday to the point where I actually started crying for a few minutes before I pulled myself together. I know that if I don't reach in, once I start crying I am never going to stop. It is almost a physical reaching inside and "pulling." I am sure that you all know what I mean. I am getting scared that I am never going to be able to get back to work. Especially not doing something like cleaning houses. Looking back, I don't know how I did that for as long as I did.
But I don't have any clue as to what else to do. When I worked for ACDSee years ago, it was perfect, a little extra $$, and I could do it all from my desk. I wouldn't even know where to start to find something that I could do like that.

Then I started missing my kids, terribly. Yes, there were both here, but I feel like I never get to be with them- like really connect, with the 4 of us. I know that I have expressed that before and it is all a part of growing up, but it is still hard.
Next week, Brendan is going to be moving in with us again. He is getting kicked out- again. This time it might be more permanent and while I am happy to be able to help him, it is more change and for me, mental chaos, that I can't handle very well.

I am missing my BFF too. I haven't seen her since Christmas. I am feeling like I am losing the ability to relate to people. At the lake the other day, the other moms are talking about the vacation plans, going out to dinner, shopping- normal people stuff. I am getting really down that it seems like those things are totally out of my reach and might never be back in reach.
i know that a lot of this is also hormonal- this week would be the week I got my period cheer2: that is one good thing that I have going for me, no more of THAT!!!!).

Gary asked me if I thought that I needed to see a therapist again. Maybe. But for now, I have you my dears and I apologize for using you as my therapist.

Anyway, enough of my rambling...

Good vibes and happy faces to you all!!!

 

[faerywings]

Nancy- glad to hear that everything worked out under warranty! Usually it is happens right after that expires. That starter sounds amazing! That might be something good for the g-parents to get the kids. Scott and I have AAA and Cait is signed up for the free 1 year Teen program, but this might be a nice option too, esp if they have to wait a long time for AAA to get to them.
How was Cheesecake Factory? Hope that you and your friends had a great and yummy time!
Yoga/walk was this morning but it is raining so we can't go I am really bummed.

It is funny- my mom is the total and complete and severe opposite of your and Shar's moms. My mom refuses to get rid of anything. She has rocks and a pine cone Scott gave her in her car-- from when he was around 5. She brought up all of my report cards that she kept since I was in KDG- they went right in the trash (after I showed my kids how smart I used to be LOL).

Sharon- I have a really high pain tolerance. I had insisted that I was *not* in labor with Scott because it didn't hurt like they said, I was 9 cm when I got to the hospital. 6 tattoos and none hurt. But this everyday, non-stop s*** gets to me. I can't imagine what it would be like to not hurt. But it is what it is...

Too funny about the temp of 82* being nice- it is all relative, eight? Hope the temp trend stays low for you.
I knew that you would get your swim-groove back! How was your day with Clara?

TTYS!!!

 

[nancyr]

good morning! OMgosh just as I was writing this I had to change cars with my son only to find my car is dead again. Luckily I have my charger and yea it worked like a charm and now my son has to figure out what is staying on. OMgosh cars! Luckily I have no where to go that I can't walk. And then my son running late needs me to do his laundry really the kid needs to grow up. Whew he is on his way to work. Yesterday's lunch with my fellow workmates made me realize how really glad I retired when I did. It was awesome catching up with everyone. And everyone looked super relaxed. Cheesecake Factory was great. Had a great time at the Apple Store - could buy out the store. But only came away with my wireless earphones. So between car and lunch not much else was accomplished.

Chris glad you pulled yourself out of crying. You are so strong! I think it is lovely that you are missing your kids. It is hard for us parents to see them head off on their own. You do get to take pride in the fact that they are doing so well! It is interesting to me that your pain tolerance towards childbirth and tattoos is so different from this pain now. I guess it must be different pain nerves that do the constant pain versus the pain from childbirth.

Sharon congrats on 18 laps. That is so sweet! But I am sure that Clara needed to see her grandmother! Bet you had a great day! 82 sounds lovely to me.

Have a great day all!

 

[taxed4ever]

:wave: Hi ladies, I am popping in to say we are having a fun time with all the grands!! We are doing a ladies day today though and are having our tea leaves read. Then it will be time for DS and his family to head home :sad: Will try to pop in later on in the week. :wave:

 

[SharLamb]

Chris, when my DD expresses feelings such as you did today, I know that her hormones are in charge of her mind. I hope this is fleeting for you. Another thing I think you are experiencing is grief! Yes! Even when GOOD changes occur, they are changes, and our minds grieve over loss. All I can add is "this too shall pass." :'\

Nancy, glad you had the charger handy for your car. Hope the REAL solution is found soon. Sounds like your day yesterday was so nice. I enjoyed looking through your Instagram album.

Clara was a pill yesterday for most of my time with her. She finally cheered up toward the end. I "caught" her standing without holding on to anything several times yesterday, but every time I tried to help her walk, she just tensed up and started to cry, and collapsed. She goes in for her evaluation next week.

It did heat up yesterday...88* by the late afternoon. And still high haze. At least our air doesn't seem icky. Gonna be hot again today, but finally starting to ease down tomorrow ("they" say).

Dinner with our friends was nice. Lots of catching up. ...and yummy fish tacos (NO CABBAGE, thank you!).

I love Thursdays. Fell back asleep until 7:15 this morning, then luxuriated in bed with my carafe of coffee...caught up on websites and Instagram and Facebook on my tablet. DH is taking DGS to First Tee this afternoon. Left-overs for dinner.....easy, sweet day.

I have FOUR Anna kits to file and tag today!!!!!!!!!! Yes! I took advantage of her one-day 40%-off sale and bought enough so I could get the free templates. Can't wait! Also still have a lot of pages to make from our trip. ...and I haven't even STARTED the pages my DS shared of their recent trip to Lake Chelan.

I found an app called Instant Save to enable me to save photos from Instagram to my phone or iPad. This is so good, because my oldest son and his wife don't share photos with me the way my other two kids do, so I have made very few scrap pages of their family. But my DDIL DOES post to Instagram, so now I can snag those pictures and make scrap pages with them.

Can you tell I'm still luxuriating? Yes...moved the carafe to my office, and plan to empty the whole thing!

Let's just all have a good day.

OH! Hi Trudy. Glad you're having such fun.

 

[AnikA68]

Hi girls,

sorry for not writing here since a long time. I´m here, but as you know we are still fasting and the normal routine is very slow. Thanks god I have 3 weeks holidays .
Chris I totaly can understand your feelings about your kids. Today my daughter got her results from her exams, which were very good. And I realized that I don´t have a kid at school now. My son still works, he is now at the night shift, like my husband. And it´s really funny to see both men go to work at night and come home in the morning. And it´s a little bit scary no men at home at night:spider:. And my daugther start to work in September.
Last week we had a heat wave here. It was so hot and now it feels like winter again. this temperature changes are so bad here. But now I have a fan, so ready for the next heat wave