*sighs*
I went upstairs to bring Cait her coffee as always, and she was still in bed. She had been throwing up and nauseous all night. Again. And my darlin' ding-dong-- her anti-nausea meds were downstairs and she didn't want to get out of bed to get them. She is supposed to take them as soon as she gets nauseous, so she *doesn't* throw up.
hwell:
I am going to check in on her in another hour, I really would like to see her get into school for even a half of a day.
As of *rightnowthisverymoment* I am holding my own. Trying to keep on breathing, stay positive. I had an amazing conversation with my kids yesterday. Talked about so many things, with the family, finances, stress. Brendan was at work so we were able to discuss and express how each of us felt about the pumpkin-invite situation. Caitlyn is very grounded and reality based and felt the same as us. She doesn't protect him when she feels he has made an "off" decision. I am so glad that we all can say exactly how we feel and get it out there. Keeping it in is no good.
I told them that my mom had called, was very worried about me, and thought that maybe I needed to talk to a therapist. I had actually been thinking about that too, but viscerally felt that it would be more detrimental to have one more appt to keep than the benefit of talking to someone. And I kind of know the deal- been in and out of therapy for a long time (oh, the joys of having an eating disorder!
ound: )
But I did tell them that I didn't want to be like Grandma and ignore advice *wink* and that I was going to try hard to ask for help when i need it. (This came after a event involving me hanging over the side of my desk trying to plug my keybd back into the USB port, not being able to reach it and getting stuck. Gary came in, said, Why didn't you ask me to help? So I said, You know that I can't ask for help, but if you could pull on my legs so I can get unstuck, I would love that LOL). They said that they would try to help more too, Scott even saying that now he is not working, he can use some of that extra time to help me here. Then Scott (God I love him!!!) reminds me that I can always talk to him. He knows that Cait and I talk, a lot, but he wanted me to know that all I have to do is knock on his door and say "Gotta minute?" He said that I always tell him that I am there for him to talk, and that it goes both ways.
I know, I am a broken record, but dang, I got GOOD kids!
Today is kind of an open day so I think that I am going to get my list of recipes that I want to make for Faery-Wings, and check all of my supplies and packaging. I can't wait for my house to smell good! I hope that my family doesn't mind getting a lot of the leftovers for Christmas hahahaha!!!
Halloween decorating is just about done, too. The black floating candles for inside came out fantastic!!! I am so thrilled. Gary hung them in the staircase by the front door and all lit up, they just make me smile! I have to get some pics taken to share. It is amazing what some toilet paper tubes, empty pill bottles and some spray paint can do
I am going to get another much-needed cup of :tea: would anyone like some?
Then I will be back to catch up with everyone from the weekend!
I went upstairs to bring Cait her coffee as always, and she was still in bed. She had been throwing up and nauseous all night. Again. And my darlin' ding-dong-- her anti-nausea meds were downstairs and she didn't want to get out of bed to get them. She is supposed to take them as soon as she gets nauseous, so she *doesn't* throw up.
hwell:I am going to check in on her in another hour, I really would like to see her get into school for even a half of a day.
As of *rightnowthisverymoment* I am holding my own. Trying to keep on breathing, stay positive. I had an amazing conversation with my kids yesterday. Talked about so many things, with the family, finances, stress. Brendan was at work so we were able to discuss and express how each of us felt about the pumpkin-invite situation. Caitlyn is very grounded and reality based and felt the same as us. She doesn't protect him when she feels he has made an "off" decision. I am so glad that we all can say exactly how we feel and get it out there. Keeping it in is no good.
I told them that my mom had called, was very worried about me, and thought that maybe I needed to talk to a therapist. I had actually been thinking about that too, but viscerally felt that it would be more detrimental to have one more appt to keep than the benefit of talking to someone. And I kind of know the deal- been in and out of therapy for a long time (oh, the joys of having an eating disorder!
ound: )But I did tell them that I didn't want to be like Grandma and ignore advice *wink* and that I was going to try hard to ask for help when i need it. (This came after a event involving me hanging over the side of my desk trying to plug my keybd back into the USB port, not being able to reach it and getting stuck. Gary came in, said, Why didn't you ask me to help? So I said, You know that I can't ask for help, but if you could pull on my legs so I can get unstuck, I would love that LOL). They said that they would try to help more too, Scott even saying that now he is not working, he can use some of that extra time to help me here. Then Scott (God I love him!!!) reminds me that I can always talk to him. He knows that Cait and I talk, a lot, but he wanted me to know that all I have to do is knock on his door and say "Gotta minute?" He said that I always tell him that I am there for him to talk, and that it goes both ways.
I know, I am a broken record, but dang, I got GOOD kids!
Today is kind of an open day so I think that I am going to get my list of recipes that I want to make for Faery-Wings, and check all of my supplies and packaging. I can't wait for my house to smell good! I hope that my family doesn't mind getting a lot of the leftovers for Christmas hahahaha!!!
Halloween decorating is just about done, too. The black floating candles for inside came out fantastic!!! I am so thrilled. Gary hung them in the staircase by the front door and all lit up, they just make me smile! I have to get some pics taken to share. It is amazing what some toilet paper tubes, empty pill bottles and some spray paint can do
I am going to get another much-needed cup of :tea: would anyone like some?
Then I will be back to catch up with everyone from the weekend!
