Hey there, O-zies! Good morning to you all.
Finally, the temps are nice. we got into the upper-70s and it was good to be outside pulling weeds. I needed the break from life since I was not in my best mental state yesterday.
Everything started out fine-- as I said, "meh" but fine. I was baking the banana bread when Cait showed me the link to the video from the college admins. Then they had the choir singing the Ramapo "theme song" and the words were extremely cheesy even though their voices were wonderful. I went back to washing dishes, laughing a bit with Caitlyn. Until it went back to the President who said "Congratulations, Class of 2020!" Then I started to cry. I am hugging Cait, crying, trying to laugh at myself. She distracts me by asking if I want to see her name in the program. She finds her name and it has *** after it. We both have a feeling what that means, but she looks it up-- summa cum laud - Highest Honors. Which makes me cry all over again. We are hugging and I am crying and finally, I get my act together. She goes upstairs, I finished the dishes, Gary comes inside to tell me that the baby bird is dead.
Guess what happens next?
I go outside and spend two hours yanking out weeds and chatting with Toad Friends. It didn't help my mood but at least I wasn't wallowing inside.
Dinner was yummy, the banana bread was yummy.
Today I am going to try to not wallow again but I can't make any promises.
Gratitudes-
- my family who gets me even when I don't get myself
- warmer temps and sunshine
Finally, the temps are nice. we got into the upper-70s and it was good to be outside pulling weeds. I needed the break from life since I was not in my best mental state yesterday.
Everything started out fine-- as I said, "meh" but fine. I was baking the banana bread when Cait showed me the link to the video from the college admins. Then they had the choir singing the Ramapo "theme song" and the words were extremely cheesy even though their voices were wonderful. I went back to washing dishes, laughing a bit with Caitlyn. Until it went back to the President who said "Congratulations, Class of 2020!" Then I started to cry. I am hugging Cait, crying, trying to laugh at myself. She distracts me by asking if I want to see her name in the program. She finds her name and it has *** after it. We both have a feeling what that means, but she looks it up-- summa cum laud - Highest Honors. Which makes me cry all over again. We are hugging and I am crying and finally, I get my act together. She goes upstairs, I finished the dishes, Gary comes inside to tell me that the baby bird is dead.
Guess what happens next?
I go outside and spend two hours yanking out weeds and chatting with Toad Friends. It didn't help my mood but at least I wasn't wallowing inside.
Dinner was yummy, the banana bread was yummy.
Today I am going to try to not wallow again but I can't make any promises.
Gratitudes-
- my family who gets me even when I don't get myself
- warmer temps and sunshine