:frusty::frusty::frusty:
I need sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! I am so tired! I cannot keep this up and I don't know how to make it stop. 3 am this morning. I put another sleep meditation on and went through the entire thing and could not get my brain to settle. I finally got a little more sleep but I feel distraught. I was hopeful that spending time outside in the fresh air would have helped. At least I felt better when I was out there. I took down all of the morning glory vines and clipped back some of the irises and lilies. I attempted to find all of the dog poop under the leaves. I know that I didn't and will step in it at some point in time. Such is life with three dogs and lots of trees *wink*
Cait asked me to proofread her paper from the interview that she did of our neighbor. It was really neat to learn some things that I hadn't known about him. He is such a character.
I have nothing to do today. I mean, I have stuff to do and I don't want to do anything. I have to keep myself busy. I am missing my parents something awful. My mom and I were talking about Christmas a bit and it is *killing* me. I know that the next few months are going to be very hard to get through. I should start using my light therapy lamp again. You all know how much I hate winter and how SAD really affects me. I have to scrounge up all of my mental resources *now* and make a plan. I know all of this logically. But I am so tired..........
Please, does anyone have any suggestions of how to help?
Ugh ugh ugh.
PS: I am worried about Caitlyn's immune system, it is in total overdrive, she is waking up with hives and the meds aren't helping. She needs more bloodwork and she can't get a flu shot until the hives are under control. She hasn't really had them under control in years. What if this means she can't get a COVID vax if/when it is ready? What if Gary can't since he now has three autoimmune disorders?
OMG, I need sleep.
I need sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! I am so tired! I cannot keep this up and I don't know how to make it stop. 3 am this morning. I put another sleep meditation on and went through the entire thing and could not get my brain to settle. I finally got a little more sleep but I feel distraught. I was hopeful that spending time outside in the fresh air would have helped. At least I felt better when I was out there. I took down all of the morning glory vines and clipped back some of the irises and lilies. I attempted to find all of the dog poop under the leaves. I know that I didn't and will step in it at some point in time. Such is life with three dogs and lots of trees *wink*
Cait asked me to proofread her paper from the interview that she did of our neighbor. It was really neat to learn some things that I hadn't known about him. He is such a character.

I have nothing to do today. I mean, I have stuff to do and I don't want to do anything. I have to keep myself busy. I am missing my parents something awful. My mom and I were talking about Christmas a bit and it is *killing* me. I know that the next few months are going to be very hard to get through. I should start using my light therapy lamp again. You all know how much I hate winter and how SAD really affects me. I have to scrounge up all of my mental resources *now* and make a plan. I know all of this logically. But I am so tired..........
Please, does anyone have any suggestions of how to help?

Ugh ugh ugh.
PS: I am worried about Caitlyn's immune system, it is in total overdrive, she is waking up with hives and the meds aren't helping. She needs more bloodwork and she can't get a flu shot until the hives are under control. She hasn't really had them under control in years. What if this means she can't get a COVID vax if/when it is ready? What if Gary can't since he now has three autoimmune disorders?
OMG, I need sleep.