Happy happy Friday everyone. I am almost there to this weekend. And ladies, you are going to be proud of me.
I am going to my mom's lake house for the weekend.
Yup, getting out of Dodge
I wasn't going to since the kids are both away. I felt bad about leaving Gary. But after another bad day yesterday, he suggested it to me, told me the only way I was going to get the rest I need and the "down time" for my brain would be to go there and regroup. After he said that, it kind of got stuck in my head that maybe I should. I hate leaving him though. It feels different then when the kids are with me, like he knows the three of us are together having fun, and thinking of him... and this way we are all scattered away? Does that make sense?
But i think it will do me good, even though the weather is going to be yucky. My mom is going to pick me up this afternoon. She is beyond thrilled that I am coming up. She has been very worried about me. I do keep things from her b/c I don't want her to worry but she knows anyway. She is crazy in case I haven't told you that before.
I called her yesterday afternoon to see when she and my dad were going up. She was already making plans on what to cook and all that. She had to go out but called me back a few hours later with her itinerary LOL
She is picking me up in the afternoon. She cooked a meatloaf and eggplant parm for Gary so he would have dinners. (how the heck did she know I was worried about what he was going to eat while I was gone??? I didn't even want o admit that to myself since he is a "big boy" and knows how to cook eggs or make PB&J or whatever.) My dad had already went to the liquor store to pick up a bottle of my favorite wine.....
Have I ever told you that I adore my parents? And my hubby is wonderful. He knows how much I need this and was pretty insistent that I go. And Cait gave me a bit of a bombshel yesterday that i need to come to grips with-- nothing horrible ATM, but she had been cutting again over the winter, and she showed me her scars yesterday and they are way worse than I thought. Way worse. I had to be "brave" for her sake and accept them. I kissed the ones on her arm. I don't know what else to do. Its going to take a long time for them to fade.....
*sighs*
That what does not kill me makes me stronger. Yup, that is another mantra that I lean on in times like this.
And "Always look on the bright side of life." Gotta love Monty Python to get you through a rough spot.
I am going to try to get to personals today...... I miss all of you so much and I have been rotten here this week.....
but I hope you know I love you all!!!
I am going to my mom's lake house for the weekend.
Yup, getting out of Dodge
I wasn't going to since the kids are both away. I felt bad about leaving Gary. But after another bad day yesterday, he suggested it to me, told me the only way I was going to get the rest I need and the "down time" for my brain would be to go there and regroup. After he said that, it kind of got stuck in my head that maybe I should. I hate leaving him though. It feels different then when the kids are with me, like he knows the three of us are together having fun, and thinking of him... and this way we are all scattered away? Does that make sense?
But i think it will do me good, even though the weather is going to be yucky. My mom is going to pick me up this afternoon. She is beyond thrilled that I am coming up. She has been very worried about me. I do keep things from her b/c I don't want her to worry but she knows anyway. She is crazy in case I haven't told you that before.
I called her yesterday afternoon to see when she and my dad were going up. She was already making plans on what to cook and all that. She had to go out but called me back a few hours later with her itinerary LOL
She is picking me up in the afternoon. She cooked a meatloaf and eggplant parm for Gary so he would have dinners. (how the heck did she know I was worried about what he was going to eat while I was gone??? I didn't even want o admit that to myself since he is a "big boy" and knows how to cook eggs or make PB&J or whatever.) My dad had already went to the liquor store to pick up a bottle of my favorite wine.....
Have I ever told you that I adore my parents? And my hubby is wonderful. He knows how much I need this and was pretty insistent that I go. And Cait gave me a bit of a bombshel yesterday that i need to come to grips with-- nothing horrible ATM, but she had been cutting again over the winter, and she showed me her scars yesterday and they are way worse than I thought. Way worse.
I had to be "brave" for her sake and accept them. I kissed the ones on her arm. I don't know what else to do. Its going to take a long time for them to fade.....*sighs*
That what does not kill me makes me stronger. Yup, that is another mantra that I lean on in times like this.
And "Always look on the bright side of life." Gotta love Monty Python to get you through a rough spot.
I am going to try to get to personals today...... I miss all of you so much and I have been rotten here this week.....
but I hope you know I love you all!!!
