Daily Ooos: Friday, June 4

[faerywings]

Happy Friday to you all!!
It is another cloudy and dreary day here. I feel very waterlogged. If I can hold on to tomorrow, that will be a nice day- sunny and 80* and then followed by a week of sun and heat. Yahoo!

Yesterday went fine, I cleaned, then put gas in my tank on the way home, and poof- no money left LOL Not really but close. I called my mom in the afternoon and we started to talk about going down the shore for a couple of days in September. She wanted to make plans a few months ago but I was too freaked out, it seemed so far away and her health isn't the best. We talked around the edges of it but finally discussed it more openly yesterday. I am worried that we will either have all of these plans to look forward to and then something will happen to her, or that we will be down the shore and she will get sick. I know I have to deal with the anxiety/intrusive thoughts and I am working on it. Sure isn't easy or comfortable. Any advice?

Let's see, today is another grey day so I can't work outside. Do I try to clean inside a bit? Do I *have* to??????? My shower could use a good scrubbing. Everything else looks pretty tidy from early in the week. I should put the winter clothes in the attic or by the time I get around to it, it will be winter again.

There-- I just wrote a to-do list in my planner and that means I should remember everything. "Should" -- key word. heh
Have a fab day!!

 

[faerywings]

@LSlycord I hope that you are feeling a bit better every day. Did Shaun officially graduate yet? My town's date is June 18 but I know that NJ schools run much later than most other states.

@tanteva Marten sounds exactly like Catzilla- except she was 16 pounds. She thought it was fun to sleep in my neck. How old is Marten, wonder if it is her reincarnated?
I hope you were able to catch up on some sleep last night. Your dinner reminded me of one that I made a few times and then forgot about it-- fried rice with cashews, pineapple, and red peppers. I should add that to my list. IIRC, I stopped making it b/c Scott wasn't crazy about it but he can grab a bowl of cereal that night.

@taxed4ever You must have had such a fantastic time yesterday, bet your hair feels wonderful and looks amazing too. What goodies did you get at the craft store? Leah and my niece both got Cricuts recently, they all seem like a lot of fun to mess around with. I got my niece some Disney Cutting files for her graduation and as I was shopping online, I was amazed but the kinds of stuff cutting machines can do and make.
Enjoy hockey!

@felis- Thanks for the additional info!

I hate when that happens, Eva-- hope you were able to get to sleep (not my superpower either) and that you feel energized today.

Kay- Congrats on getting the comforter! I can imagine how happy you must have been. What shade of purple is it? How exciting to get some new books too. I am reading one on Hoopla and it was good, but now they tossed in a twist that I did NOT see coming and wow, it changed it all up! If it was a physical book, I would have flipped to the beginning to skim for any clues that I missed.

@nancyr Are you feeling waterlogged too? At least you have lots of hockey to watch while you and Luther are stuck inside. You are so lucky to live where you can walk everywhere. The dinner with DS and DF(iance) must have been fun to be together. Your driveway is going to smell good with the smoker out there.

kay- ooooh that comforter is soooo pretty! I love that shade of purple, very rich!!

Eva- this is what I came to when I clicked on your first photo. hahhaha-- Ooops is right!

 

[faerywings]

Eva- thank you so much for sharing this. If you read my first post today, I was asking for advice on how to get out of the loop of intrusive thoughts. I was thinking to myself that I really should do another round of therapy, just to get some guidance for why I am thinking the way I am. It has been really long time since I did that but my health insurance really stinks which makes even looking for *any* therapist (let alone a good one) a stressful, time-consuming, and expensive endeavor. It's also easy to put off b/c I can tell myself that I know what they are going to tell me to do. Which, to an extent, is true. I used that Why technique previously but you know that if you don't use it consistently, it doesn't last as a habit. This was such a good reminder for me.

My big defense mechanism is to ignore/stuff down/keep my brain busy so I don't think. The last few months I have been trying to let my brain "explore" a bit but it sure isn't always comfortable. Going back to"Why?" And "What then?" is a good way for me to try.
Thank you @felis and @tanteva for getting this discussion started

 

[tanteva]

I know I have to deal with the anxiety/intrusive thoughts and I am working on it. Sure isn't easy or comfortable. Any advice?

I know it isn't easy - it takes training, but if I can stop worrying everyone can. I am diagnosed with GAD. - Which I really think is basically gone now ... but I still have the diagnosis.

 

[felis]

Thank you @felis and @tanteva for getting this discussion started

I find very interesting what Eva is sharing, as I have interest at the mental health topic! But Chris, I'm afraid you're mixed two different thing.
I was thought and I'm searching for way to enchantment and attract outside changes (success, love, comfort) by improving myself. Although Eva talk more about how to get rid from things inside you. It's interesting, but diametric from what I'm mean.

I'm sorry I wasn't able to come yesterday!
But I said I'm very distracted these days, so I was misunderstood the proportion of work I'm akcept and in the last day I was only half done. Hard work, less sleep and lots of frustration, but all is done at the right day, so no problems. If we ignore the working part today was like little holiday, early Christmas with delivery guy instead of Santa Claus, lol. March 24th and June 1st was holidays so everywhere was running 2 weeks of good sales. I just couldn't resist! I need these stuffs and would have to buy it sooner or later, but buying on sale save me money, so it's actually not so bad. lol Welcome Summer! I'm pretty well stock with books, yarn and clothes.

Now onto a personal:
Chris, I think it's strange that people expected to be happy every day. To be calm seems more naturally to me. But excitement and happiness they are for special days when you really have a reason. I think your bad mood is because you are very sensitive and empath person. Oh, I'm so agree about the ridiculous expensive prices of the therapist! And also so many people died because of suicide, but the psychologists still are not covered by the health taxes here, it's so ridiculous. Do you listen to some podcast for self help or maybe books? It's difficult to believe that you ignore stuff, as you always worry for something. Even for repetitive things like your weekly meals ideas. Hug you! I'm following great life coach, but again it wouldn't work for you because of the language. I will thinking for some helpful sources for mood buster, on english, and will give suggestions at the next days!

Kay I absolutely love this velvet's color it's so gorgeous and royalty!

Eva, I'm giggling over your naughty cat's story (oh and how big that cat it is, so cute)! It's good that your knitting project wasn't damaged!

Trudy, I hope you was more moderate with the shopping than me!

Nancy, I love that I live in a town where I can walk every where too, especially because I can't drive. I lived in another city for a while and just hated these taxi, especially at short winter days when its gets dark early, and everyone looks suspicious. How was the dinner with your son? Umm smoker is like covered grill, right?

 

[nancyr]

good evening - not sure how the day slipped away. Just as I was thinking of taking Luther out a big line of thunderstorms passed over. The wind and lightning YUCK! My son brought over the smoker and it smells so good. It is indeed a covered grill that uses hickory logs at a low temperature for a long time to cook the meat. He will be us all night cooking. He says rain caused problems because the wood got wet. OH well the life of a cook. I am watching hockey and it is an exciting 1 goal game. Then at 10pm I have another game and then tomorrow 7am is the USA/Canada game. And then I have a wedding to attend. When do I sleep? LOL I know I am crazy with watching hockey. One of my son's friends came over and it was nice to catch up with him and his family. I was trying out one of the techniques from the Anna Aspnes class dealing with making more realistic shadows but it was a cluster class. Now I went back to see if I tried these techniques would it make a difference on the page. Darn I think it does. Now this means I have to go back and modify them. But glad that I learned how to separate the drop shadow from the element. My best news is that my youngest son has a new job. It is basically the same job but for a different company making more money. It is a bit of a commute. I am happy for him. They even gave him to time off for the vacation he already had planned. That is awesome.

@faerywings Chris yes I am waterlogged. But I am glad that the wedding should be rain free! I guess I would make the plans for the beach with your mom. I know for me I really liked looking forward knowing that I was going to AZ with friends. Kids will be back in school and hopefully more vaccinated. You can always cancel if you have to. I like the quote on the page from Eva. Even though I worry I like this quote a lot.

@tanteva Eva thanks for sharing that page. It does take a lot of work to not worry.

@BrightEyes Oh Kay that comfortable is perfect for your bedroom! That purple looks so royal!

@felis Felis yes there is nothing better than being able to walk. We don't have a grocery store so I have to drive there but we have lots of restaurants and fun stores to shop in. We have our train station so we can get into NYC easily. Our dinner with my son and his fiancé was so fun. They were happy about his new job, a new baby for a SIL, and of course the wedding. Thanks for asking.

Have a great day all!