I crashed my bike on the same corner during winter of 1983 for 3 days in a row when I was 18. Black Ice. So hard to see.
I have never touched a bike since then.
I also failed all my exams and was suspended from the university that same year - 1983. Academic probation.
I could have gone back after 1 year. I should have gone back. But I didn't. I felt rejected. So I stopped studying.
I think that is when I stopped balancing... I stopped pushing myself. I gave up.
And now I have no idea how to start moving forward again...