Dang, ladies-- it is July! How in the world did that happen?
My mom always drove me batty when she would say that the 4th of July meant the end of summer. Wouldn't you know, after all of the years of that conditioning message, I internalized it. Most of my mental activity yesterday was trying to convince myself that no, July is the beginning of summer. Especially since in NJ, back-to-school season isn't until September.
My funky mood stuck around most of the day. I was fine at work, but as soon as I got home, I had an anxiety attack at the eye doctor appointment and then got the terrible news that BFF's mom is going into hospice. My brain wasn't really fried, but scrambled and set out in the hot and humid sun to curdle. BFFs mom (my Mom #2) can't swallow so isn't getting any nutrition. BFF believes that her Advanced Directive states no tube feeding, so I guess she will get IV fluids, and that is it? That seems like it won't be very long but BFF doesn't know for sure. That got me to thinking that my brother and I should have copies of our parents' DNR/Advance Directives at our homes. That way we will have the info right at hand if need be, no one has to run to their house or the safety deposit boxes. All of this stinks.
I ended up texting my niece (BFFs DD), asking her that if her mom gets overwhelmed, to let me know. *sighs* My two closest friends are going through hell and like I said, I feel helpless and sad for them and for me.
At least the new contact lenses feel pretty comfortable and I think I can see decently. I need to get new glasses as well. My astigmatism is worse and I haven't gotten new glasses in 5+ years.
This morning I am finishing my grocery order and then off for training this afternoon. The interns are doing the "big hike" this morning and I have been on that one a few times, so I don't need to go. I won't be bringing my PreK group anywhere near there.
But the afternoon is Emergency Procedures and Medical training. Always good to brush up on that as often as possible.
So that's it.... Happy Beginning of Summer

My mom always drove me batty when she would say that the 4th of July meant the end of summer. Wouldn't you know, after all of the years of that conditioning message, I internalized it. Most of my mental activity yesterday was trying to convince myself that no, July is the beginning of summer. Especially since in NJ, back-to-school season isn't until September.
My funky mood stuck around most of the day. I was fine at work, but as soon as I got home, I had an anxiety attack at the eye doctor appointment and then got the terrible news that BFF's mom is going into hospice. My brain wasn't really fried, but scrambled and set out in the hot and humid sun to curdle. BFFs mom (my Mom #2) can't swallow so isn't getting any nutrition. BFF believes that her Advanced Directive states no tube feeding, so I guess she will get IV fluids, and that is it? That seems like it won't be very long but BFF doesn't know for sure. That got me to thinking that my brother and I should have copies of our parents' DNR/Advance Directives at our homes. That way we will have the info right at hand if need be, no one has to run to their house or the safety deposit boxes. All of this stinks.
I ended up texting my niece (BFFs DD), asking her that if her mom gets overwhelmed, to let me know. *sighs* My two closest friends are going through hell and like I said, I feel helpless and sad for them and for me.
At least the new contact lenses feel pretty comfortable and I think I can see decently. I need to get new glasses as well. My astigmatism is worse and I haven't gotten new glasses in 5+ years.
This morning I am finishing my grocery order and then off for training this afternoon. The interns are doing the "big hike" this morning and I have been on that one a few times, so I don't need to go. I won't be bringing my PreK group anywhere near there.

So that's it.... Happy Beginning of Summer
