Well... yesterday's warning seems to be applicable for today too. 
My day did not go as planned, not even a bit, and I am not feeling much better today.
I had an utter meltdown yesterday morning. I hate when that happens, there is just so darn much crud inside me that I stuff down and ignore. It is not pretty when it bubbles up out of control. Gary tried to tell to not stress, it is not good for my health either. He suggested seeing a therapist again, so when I felt calmer I popped online for my health insurance co, and the search was giving me therapists a half hour away, I know there have to be some closer to me than that. Then thinking about insurance got me off on a freak-out tangent of how when we lose Caitlyn's Social Security Dependent Income in Sept, not only will we lost that income, but that will drop our household income levels to qualify for Medicaid, I don't want to be on Medicaid. Those plans stink! I tried to add Caitlyn to my policy but if you are eligible for state funded, you aren't eligible for the ACA policy. That set me off again.
I get myself together, and head off to my client's house. I wander around her kitchen, there is no list of what projects she had for me, no money left out where she puts it. I leave her a note that I was there, and to call me to reschedule. Went home and tried to not flip out over losing the day's pay.
Pulled myself together yet again (are you getting images of those dolls on strings that they are limp, then you pull the sting and they straighten up? That is how I felt! LOL), got some stuff done in the house, then spent the afternoon digging in the dirt. It was so windy and the leaves were blowing everywhere, so anything I did will most likely need to get re-done. But I put on an audio-book and just ignored life. That helped a bit, and I was able to cook dinner and veg on the sofa after dinner.
Caitlyn, Gary and I decided it was better for her to stay home today too, so she will hopefully get the absences excused more quickly. How f-ing insane is that? She has to lose a second day of school, so she doesn't lose credit in classes that she getting all A's in??????? The nurse at the LLMD's office is just fab and sent me notes for yesterday and today to give us the option of what she decided to do.
Today I get to go food shopping, yippee.
Then my parents are coming up at lunchtime. My mom called to ask if we would be around, that she and my dad wanted to visit Something is up, my dad never just pops in for lunch.
Last does of Tindamax for the week was yesterday morning, which means it will be safe for me to have a gi-normous glass of wine after dinner tonight.
Trudy- the last audio-book that I was listening to (Elizabeth is Missing- very good!) was read by Davina Porter. She is such an amazing narrator. The main character has dementia and her voice gets more "crazy" and panicked as the dementia progresses.
But wow, it made me miss Claire and Jamie!!!!
Have a wonderful day my O-Fam!!!!!
My day did not go as planned, not even a bit, and I am not feeling much better today.
I had an utter meltdown yesterday morning. I hate when that happens, there is just so darn much crud inside me that I stuff down and ignore. It is not pretty when it bubbles up out of control. Gary tried to tell to not stress, it is not good for my health either. He suggested seeing a therapist again, so when I felt calmer I popped online for my health insurance co, and the search was giving me therapists a half hour away, I know there have to be some closer to me than that. Then thinking about insurance got me off on a freak-out tangent of how when we lose Caitlyn's Social Security Dependent Income in Sept, not only will we lost that income, but that will drop our household income levels to qualify for Medicaid, I don't want to be on Medicaid. Those plans stink! I tried to add Caitlyn to my policy but if you are eligible for state funded, you aren't eligible for the ACA policy. That set me off again.
I get myself together, and head off to my client's house. I wander around her kitchen, there is no list of what projects she had for me, no money left out where she puts it. I leave her a note that I was there, and to call me to reschedule. Went home and tried to not flip out over losing the day's pay.
Pulled myself together yet again (are you getting images of those dolls on strings that they are limp, then you pull the sting and they straighten up? That is how I felt! LOL), got some stuff done in the house, then spent the afternoon digging in the dirt. It was so windy and the leaves were blowing everywhere, so anything I did will most likely need to get re-done. But I put on an audio-book and just ignored life. That helped a bit, and I was able to cook dinner and veg on the sofa after dinner.
Caitlyn, Gary and I decided it was better for her to stay home today too, so she will hopefully get the absences excused more quickly. How f-ing insane is that? She has to lose a second day of school, so she doesn't lose credit in classes that she getting all A's in??????? The nurse at the LLMD's office is just fab and sent me notes for yesterday and today to give us the option of what she decided to do.
Today I get to go food shopping, yippee.
Then my parents are coming up at lunchtime. My mom called to ask if we would be around, that she and my dad wanted to visit Something is up, my dad never just pops in for lunch.
Last does of Tindamax for the week was yesterday morning, which means it will be safe for me to have a gi-normous glass of wine after dinner tonight.
Trudy- the last audio-book that I was listening to (Elizabeth is Missing- very good!) was read by Davina Porter. She is such an amazing narrator. The main character has dementia and her voice gets more "crazy" and panicked as the dementia progresses.
But wow, it made me miss Claire and Jamie!!!!
Have a wonderful day my O-Fam!!!!!
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