Let the Healing Begin...
I don't think I have cried so much in the last several day than I have in years. It's just so ... I don't think I even have the words. I called the vet as soon as they opened and they were able to get us in at 10.30. The receptionist asked if I knew what I wanted to do with his remains and I said simple cremation, and could we bring our bunny in to be cremated too. Just absolute pain and tears. We all were with Merlin and you could tell that he was ready, he looked at each of us, then laid his head back down with soft purrs.
The staff at my vet is wonderful, and they have known us for years, the kids since I was pg with both of them. One of the techs there just hugged Cait (they had bonded over bunnies).
The two of them are now together, Bunny hopping after Merlin and bumping noses together. They were quite the pair. Bunny- pure white, very large, long ears, little stumpy legs and a short tail. Merlin- pure black, little ears, long legs and tail. They were complete opposites but would hang out next to each other much of the time. Any time I would go in to talk to Cait, I would sit on the floor and they would come over to me, mush down, and want lots of petting.
Cait had Gary and Scott take the hutch down. She couldn't bear to look at it. Now her room looks so empty.
She had her Girls' Group (therapy) last night and she asked the therapist of Scott could come too. She had to get approval from all of the girls, and they all said for him to come. She told me it was good to have him with her, and that he was grateful for the support. I had Cait sleep downstairs with me so she wouldn't wake up and be alone. She said this morning that it was nice to wake up and have Heather (Catzilla) smothering her and purring at her face and Ravyn curled up at her feet.
She keeps thanking me for for making her strong enough to get through this, and as always I keep telling her that it isn't me, it's all her, I am only guiding her.
But *I* had/have good guidance.
My brother happened to call in the morning, he had heard from my mom that Merlin was sick. I told him about Bunny too. Next thing I know, he is at my door, offering to go to the vet with us. I thanked him over and over but said we needed it to be the 4 of us. Then he gave me money for pizza so I didn't have to cook dinner. That is the kind of family I came from.
Blessed. Very blessed.
OK, I should shut up now.
Thank you all so very much for your support too. I know that I can come here and go on and on (and on!!!) but you all will send hugs and support. That means more than you know.
I am sorry that I have not been up for personals but please know that I think of you every day
::grouphug
I don't think I have cried so much in the last several day than I have in years. It's just so ... I don't think I even have the words. I called the vet as soon as they opened and they were able to get us in at 10.30. The receptionist asked if I knew what I wanted to do with his remains and I said simple cremation, and could we bring our bunny in to be cremated too. Just absolute pain and tears. We all were with Merlin and you could tell that he was ready, he looked at each of us, then laid his head back down with soft purrs.
The staff at my vet is wonderful, and they have known us for years, the kids since I was pg with both of them. One of the techs there just hugged Cait (they had bonded over bunnies).
The two of them are now together, Bunny hopping after Merlin and bumping noses together. They were quite the pair. Bunny- pure white, very large, long ears, little stumpy legs and a short tail. Merlin- pure black, little ears, long legs and tail. They were complete opposites but would hang out next to each other much of the time. Any time I would go in to talk to Cait, I would sit on the floor and they would come over to me, mush down, and want lots of petting.
Cait had Gary and Scott take the hutch down. She couldn't bear to look at it. Now her room looks so empty.
She had her Girls' Group (therapy) last night and she asked the therapist of Scott could come too. She had to get approval from all of the girls, and they all said for him to come. She told me it was good to have him with her, and that he was grateful for the support. I had Cait sleep downstairs with me so she wouldn't wake up and be alone. She said this morning that it was nice to wake up and have Heather (Catzilla) smothering her and purring at her face and Ravyn curled up at her feet.
She keeps thanking me for for making her strong enough to get through this, and as always I keep telling her that it isn't me, it's all her, I am only guiding her.
But *I* had/have good guidance.
My brother happened to call in the morning, he had heard from my mom that Merlin was sick. I told him about Bunny too. Next thing I know, he is at my door, offering to go to the vet with us. I thanked him over and over but said we needed it to be the 4 of us. Then he gave me money for pizza so I didn't have to cook dinner. That is the kind of family I came from.
Blessed. Very blessed.
OK, I should shut up now.
Thank you all so very much for your support too. I know that I can come here and go on and on (and on!!!) but you all will send hugs and support. That means more than you know.
I am sorry that I have not been up for personals but please know that I think of you every day
::grouphug
