Must. Drink. Coffee. :tea:
Don't tell my kids, but I got them chocolate covered coffee beans for their stockings and it is taking about all of my resistance to not unwrap and eat them hahaha!!
last night was the first night in a long time that I slept almost all of the way through. I woke up once- too hot, too cold, hate this time of year when it is impossible to regulate my body temp- but was able to get back to sleep relatively quickly. However, I think it is going to take me a while to catch up on sleep.
I got a lot of stuff done yesterday. Still not everything off of my list but getting closer. X-rays went smooth. My Dr will automatically have access to everything by Wed. I was going to try to go to the place near me, but this was so much smarter so I won't have to worry about getting records and CDs and stuff to him.
I was then able to get (almost?) my Christmas shopping done. Lunch with my mom as very nice. We didn't fight at all even when she told me that she isn't sure if she wants to get the pacemaker because she isn't "sure that she will like the way it changes how she feels." What???? :frusty: On one hand I *do* get that, When I was sick, and for so many years, I was scared what it would like to get better, to not have Lyme be the factor in everything that I did. Now that I am better and *feel* better, I don't want to have a relapse and feel like that again. But really, Mom?? This could be a literal life and death difference. argh.
What.ev.er.
heh.
I am also experiencing some good stress. My ILs have been wanting to take the entire family on a cruise for years and they booked it last night. I am soooo excited to be going on a "real" vacation and be able to get pampered a bit. I am sad that Gary is not able to go with us. He is ok with that. He doesn't want to hold me or the kids back. But not only have I never been away from him for 8 days (might be a good thing!!!), it is like a piece of my heart breaks for all of the things that we *should* be able to do together. It sucks. But I bet that the kids will keep me laughing- as long as they don't desert me 100% to be with their cousins. OTOH- It might be nice to be left alone. I am not a people-person so to be "trapped" makes me anxious. Even with family that I adore.
Today I have lots of loose ends that need to get completed. I think I should be able to finish almost all of my wrapping. I think that the baskets should be almost ready to go too. The menu for Christmas day needs to be finalized and then I am placing the food shopping order online. The weather isn't great but Scott's final doesn't start until 3 pm and Cait's is at 11. Hopefully, the roads will be ok to travel because they don't have an option to not go in.
Deeeeep breaths...
I got this!!
Hugs!!!
Don't tell my kids, but I got them chocolate covered coffee beans for their stockings and it is taking about all of my resistance to not unwrap and eat them hahaha!!
last night was the first night in a long time that I slept almost all of the way through. I woke up once- too hot, too cold, hate this time of year when it is impossible to regulate my body temp- but was able to get back to sleep relatively quickly. However, I think it is going to take me a while to catch up on sleep.
I got a lot of stuff done yesterday. Still not everything off of my list but getting closer. X-rays went smooth. My Dr will automatically have access to everything by Wed. I was going to try to go to the place near me, but this was so much smarter so I won't have to worry about getting records and CDs and stuff to him.
I was then able to get (almost?) my Christmas shopping done. Lunch with my mom as very nice. We didn't fight at all even when she told me that she isn't sure if she wants to get the pacemaker because she isn't "sure that she will like the way it changes how she feels." What???? :frusty: On one hand I *do* get that, When I was sick, and for so many years, I was scared what it would like to get better, to not have Lyme be the factor in everything that I did. Now that I am better and *feel* better, I don't want to have a relapse and feel like that again. But really, Mom?? This could be a literal life and death difference. argh.
What.ev.er.
heh.
I am also experiencing some good stress. My ILs have been wanting to take the entire family on a cruise for years and they booked it last night. I am soooo excited to be going on a "real" vacation and be able to get pampered a bit. I am sad that Gary is not able to go with us. He is ok with that. He doesn't want to hold me or the kids back. But not only have I never been away from him for 8 days (might be a good thing!!!), it is like a piece of my heart breaks for all of the things that we *should* be able to do together. It sucks. But I bet that the kids will keep me laughing- as long as they don't desert me 100% to be with their cousins. OTOH- It might be nice to be left alone. I am not a people-person so to be "trapped" makes me anxious. Even with family that I adore.
Today I have lots of loose ends that need to get completed. I think I should be able to finish almost all of my wrapping. I think that the baskets should be almost ready to go too. The menu for Christmas day needs to be finalized and then I am placing the food shopping order online. The weather isn't great but Scott's final doesn't start until 3 pm and Cait's is at 11. Hopefully, the roads will be ok to travel because they don't have an option to not go in.
Deeeeep breaths...
I got this!!
Hugs!!!