Hello my wonderful O-Fam! Yes, it is Thanksgiving here in the States, and I am thankful for all of you, all over the world.
I always have had such mixed feelings about Thanksgiving. I think it goes back to when I was a kid and feeling very much the ugly and untalented ducking of sorts. My cousins were these beautiful, musical, athletic people and while I loved them all, it was hard for me to find my "place," so to speak. My aunts and uncles were always going on about this kid's successes or football game or recital. I was/am so shy and my parents are very unassuming, never felt the need to brag about us, that I always ended up feeling so inadequate.
Here I am 30 years later and I still get this anxiety over this holiday. Crazy, right? Gary is not going to be able to come with us which makes me sad. His parents are going to go on about if he just "tried harder" to get out of the house... :blah: This has been going on for 10 years now. I wish they would understand that he would give *anything* to be able to be with his family, rather than sitting alone.
(thank all of the gods that I don't have PMS or this little bit of soliloquy would be much more emotional than it already is haha!!!!)
So there it is. I wish I could be home with Gary and my kids in my pj's eating pasta. But Cait and I are off to my IL's, Scott and Leah and her mom will meet us there later, and my parents will be there too. My issue right now is how tired I have been and I wish I didn't have to drive home "late." When I crash, I crash hard and that is usually by 6pm. My mom told me that I could stay over at her house, she lives much closer to IL's than I do. I guess we'll have to see.
Anyway there is my crazy Holiday Ramblings. Aren't you all so glad to be stand in's as my therapist!?ound:
QOTD Yes, very corny and trite, but what are you thankful for today?
I am thankful for my family, and my extendeds, my BFF. I am *extremely* thankful that my kids' lives are in a much more positive direction than they were even this time last year. I am thankful that my cancer was taken care of and that I made it through that ordeal with so much love and support from everyone -- all of you too!!! I am thankful for the roof over my head, that I can put food on my table (even if I grumble about how expensive it is heh!), and that I have a wonderful creative outlet here at the O.
Hugs love and kisses to you!
I always have had such mixed feelings about Thanksgiving. I think it goes back to when I was a kid and feeling very much the ugly and untalented ducking of sorts. My cousins were these beautiful, musical, athletic people and while I loved them all, it was hard for me to find my "place," so to speak. My aunts and uncles were always going on about this kid's successes or football game or recital. I was/am so shy and my parents are very unassuming, never felt the need to brag about us, that I always ended up feeling so inadequate.
Here I am 30 years later and I still get this anxiety over this holiday. Crazy, right? Gary is not going to be able to come with us which makes me sad. His parents are going to go on about if he just "tried harder" to get out of the house... :blah: This has been going on for 10 years now. I wish they would understand that he would give *anything* to be able to be with his family, rather than sitting alone.
(thank all of the gods that I don't have PMS or this little bit of soliloquy would be much more emotional than it already is haha!!!!)
So there it is. I wish I could be home with Gary and my kids in my pj's eating pasta. But Cait and I are off to my IL's, Scott and Leah and her mom will meet us there later, and my parents will be there too. My issue right now is how tired I have been and I wish I didn't have to drive home "late." When I crash, I crash hard and that is usually by 6pm. My mom told me that I could stay over at her house, she lives much closer to IL's than I do. I guess we'll have to see.
Anyway there is my crazy Holiday Ramblings. Aren't you all so glad to be stand in's as my therapist!?ound:
QOTD Yes, very corny and trite, but what are you thankful for today?
I am thankful for my family, and my extendeds, my BFF. I am *extremely* thankful that my kids' lives are in a much more positive direction than they were even this time last year. I am thankful that my cancer was taken care of and that I made it through that ordeal with so much love and support from everyone -- all of you too!!! I am thankful for the roof over my head, that I can put food on my table (even if I grumble about how expensive it is heh!), and that I have a wonderful creative outlet here at the O.
Hugs love and kisses to you!