Hello girls,
I was mostly offline, and still don't feel much talkative. I'm working this weekend, as I changed my schedule so my free days to match with these of my mom and sister, and helped them with cleaning and rearranging projects which three of us made.
The weather is so lovely, we wear top at afternoon, and we didn't heat the house even at night. Only colors shows it's autumn, just a perfect weather! So we have also lots of talks on our garden bench with cup of coffee and handkerchief.
If you allows me I'll copy what Chris said and use it for my mom too: I don't want to see her be bitter and anxious for the rest of her life. But I start wondering did she know other behavior?! I mean she grown with despotic alcohol addict father, and still use this for excuse of everything weak in her behavior. She is so unhappy in her new job, that seriously consider to quit after the test period ends. The colleague in a higher position treat her so rude, so she suffer a lot and only complain. She say: ''If I can't come at home and show my weakness then where", then start to complain, and get nervous and recount situations in which she is allowed to be humiliated. And this is every single day!!! It's so frustrating to know that someone treat your mother so bad and there is nothing that you can do! My mom have a big guilt too, as you can't just to expect people to be nice with you! Especially when you work only with women, there is lots of intrigues and irreverence, and you have to earn respect with strong position, arrogance and sharp tongue. She allows people to be rude and impertinent with her, and then run to hide, cry and play it victim!
Pff, It's so frustrating! And I feel guilty that she have to work, as I don't help at all for the family budget! Everything that I earn spend for my pets. And I hate that any woman in this world have to work, instead just to be housewife! The most pathetic thing for me is lady who excuse with the stupid phrase "I Wanted to Go Out and Change the World But I Couldn't Find a Babysitter", oh come on, the saving of world must be on the first position! Self-sacrifice! It should matter, but it's not. All I did at the fostering program, isn't changed anything. I feels like I'm doing the right thing, but do it in a wrong way. And all that start to deprives my family from the help I have to give them! Lots of days I feels like "I have to live the life" instead of "I want to live the life". Even when I'm happy I know it's couldn't last for a long. And I'm so scared and disappointed! As one of my favorite songs says:
"I blame you Hollywood, For showing me things you never should Show a young girl,In a cruel world. Because life's not a happy ending".
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Chris, Oh excellent that chairs went so well! I hope to have fun on the Mourning Tea and that you figured out what to wear! With your creativity combination of few old stuff in new outfit should not be problem! If this is the same ceremony that we are discussed before, for remembrance of our lost beloveds, the dresses are the last things that should care for! Sorry to hear that rats have new health problems! Oh, I have to see what pages you are post, I seem to have missed a lot!
And I was so happy to read about your day vacation, wish you long next time!
Trudy,oh dear, you had a really cool week and I'm so happy about you! It's great that Heat Pump problem was resolved with minimal headaches! The warm vacation sounds awesome, good luck with that! Oh, "Downton Abbey", is something I would love to see too! I like the TV series, but I wasn't hear about movie, have to check it! Octobeerfest in Youbou also sounds so interesting! My sister is being on Oktoberfest in Germany previous year and it was lot of fun. Hope you to Get lot of fun and dance!
Nancy, the kitty story is the sweetest thing, really! Here we have old belief that cats diagnose pains and lay on a places that hurts you. Does that mean you stay upstairs? Isn't the stairs climbing too painful yet? You amaze me every time, you are hero!
I had enjoyed Jodi Picoult's book ''House Rules'' a lot, and from few years tries to find "The tenth circle", but it's out of stock here.
Jean, As always, the new drawing is so beautiful! At some very cozy and pretty way, it gives me feeling for wonderful winter's morning somehow! All this about the Guild of Nature Artists, sounds very intrigued and reminds me for the impressionists and their groups
Kay, you have very elegant and bright home! Thank you for share the view! Hope your SIL to can resolve the computer issues! And so smart from your side to not throw away the old keyboard and mouse! Every over consuming and waste of materials is bad for the planet, so will be great if you can use them for a little more.
