Happy Saturday! It is another cold and snow-showery morning here in Faery-Land. No accumulations, just dusting so far. But I have coffee and a blanket and am all cozied up.
No Celebratory Coffee for me yesterday.
It turns out that it was cancer- ductal carcinoma in-situ. It is Stage 0- meaning completely contained. Now I need to find a surgeon to get it removed and figure out further treatment, if needed. I have to admit, I was not surprised. I had a feeling that the dr knew when I went for my magnification mammo right before Christmas. It was handled differently than the last time I had a biopsy there. It just had a different vibe...
But the good news is that it is very early in the game, hasn't spread anywhere else and is easily treatable.
Honestly, I am not sure how I feel about the news either. Everyone around me seems to be taking it harder than I am. I am not sure if I really believe that its no big deal- no different than a hangnail, or if it is just my defense mechanisms kicking in. Minimizing it all, making jokes, shrugging it off (stressing about not being able to work!! LOL). Who knows? I have already been through so much, what is one more thing, eh?
All I can say is thank goodness I got the health insurance plan that I did. I have a $750 deductible (I am sure that I hit that the first min of the biopsy, maybe even before I got on the table), and a $1250 maximum out of pocket for the year. If I haven't hit that yet, I will very soon, so the rest of the year will be $0 out of pocket. I am still hoping to get a PICC line covered, but that has to get done before beach/swimming season
The other thing that I have learned is that it is totally OK to say "I don't know what to say except that I love you" when you hear bad news. I always felt bad when I said that to other people, like it wasn't "enough." But when I told my 2 BFF's the news, that is what they said to me, and it really is enough.
My parents are coming up for b-fast today. My mom wanted to come up yesterday afternoon which I knew was not good for either of us. That would have been a nightmare!!!! :hurt:
Other than that, I need to catch up on some housework.
Hope you have a more (less???) exciting day than me.
hugs!!!
No Celebratory Coffee for me yesterday.

But the good news is that it is very early in the game, hasn't spread anywhere else and is easily treatable.
Honestly, I am not sure how I feel about the news either. Everyone around me seems to be taking it harder than I am. I am not sure if I really believe that its no big deal- no different than a hangnail, or if it is just my defense mechanisms kicking in. Minimizing it all, making jokes, shrugging it off (stressing about not being able to work!! LOL). Who knows? I have already been through so much, what is one more thing, eh?
All I can say is thank goodness I got the health insurance plan that I did. I have a $750 deductible (I am sure that I hit that the first min of the biopsy, maybe even before I got on the table), and a $1250 maximum out of pocket for the year. If I haven't hit that yet, I will very soon, so the rest of the year will be $0 out of pocket. I am still hoping to get a PICC line covered, but that has to get done before beach/swimming season

The other thing that I have learned is that it is totally OK to say "I don't know what to say except that I love you" when you hear bad news. I always felt bad when I said that to other people, like it wasn't "enough." But when I told my 2 BFF's the news, that is what they said to me, and it really is enough.
My parents are coming up for b-fast today. My mom wanted to come up yesterday afternoon which I knew was not good for either of us. That would have been a nightmare!!!! :hurt:
Other than that, I need to catch up on some housework.
Hope you have a more (less???) exciting day than me.

hugs!!!