I really needed some therapy today...I was given some heartbreaking news last night
and just didn't know what to do with myself today....after looking at a few photos,
I found this one that my grandson snapped of me...I was horrified at the photo at first,
but then it hit me....this describes my feelings today...exactly..............
so smashing some elements together....writing a few jumbled words from my
jumbled head, and from my aching heart...this is where I ended up....

Journaling:
Is it too late?
Have I lost her forever?
I feel like I am running out of time,
or have I already run out?

Every day I think we have
turned a corner that shows
a little light, but it seems to
always lead back to darkness.
FOr so many years you have
been my reason to get up...
trying to save you from
yourself. I finally realized
that I can't save you, you
have to save your own self.
But did I make a mistake by
letting the handle loose? You
keep falling further and I can't
seem to reach you anymore.
How far will you go before
you realize you are not going to
survive this life you have chosen?
This latest news has taken more
of a toll on me than you will
ever imagine. I will always
ask myself where I went wrong.
I love you still, I always will.


Please don't make me send you
to God before I go. I know he
can care for you in a way that
I can't but I am too selfish to
let you go like that. My hand is
there, just reach out and take it.

Credits:
ANNA ASPNES
Artsy Clocks
ArtsyBlendz Snow Elements
Artist Edges No 7
Textured Overlays No 2
FloralArt Paperie No 12
Black Stitched Alpha Collection

TFL...Linda