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credits...
in moderation kit by taylormade designs (oscraps)
(swirl from sense+sensability kit by taylormade designs (october DST Gold featured kit)
journaling...
i know this is hard baby. its hard for me too. its been just me and you for almost 5 years. Now, Im working what im sure seems like all the time. ill explain why on another day, but today i want to make sure you understand whats happening in my own heart through this just in case it appears differently. i miss you so much. i hate having to *hear about* the funny things you said or the cute things you did that day instead of being there to see them. i hate not really *knowing* how your day was at preschool and miss the way you would throw your arms around me when i would come to pick you up. i hate the pain i feel when i see you say or do something and i know its because you want more attention from me. i hate sitting in my office and being able to see you run up to the door and stop because you know im working and you shouldn't "disturb" me. i hate having given so much of my energy to work throughout the day and having very little left for you at the end of the day. but please know that the season of life we are in right now simply required a shift in the dynamics of our family, and thats a *good* thing. it really is. it is teaching us *all* things that will impact each of us for the rest of our lives. we are pulling together, we are learning how to become stronger as a whole... something our family needed desparately. i know one day you will understand. but going through it can be so hard. hang in there with me, ok baby? i love you.
