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Kit used is Magical Moments Kit by Kitty Designs & Vera Lim
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also used Touch of Magic by Kitty Designs & Vera Lim
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Kitty and Vera are in the Double Designers spotlight and there is a challenge with freebies and prizes here
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Photos of my son when he was first born
Journaling reads
I still to this day find it hard to write about the day you where born, the reasons to why you had to come far too early, you are my tiny dot.
You were born 12 wks far too early, you weighed 2lb 7oz and needed all the help you could have to breath and just to stay alive,
all the memories I have of you for the first 6 days are all what have been told to me from the doctors and your daddy, as I was very ill and unable to see you.
You spent in total 16 wks in SCBU, I spent the first 4 wks of your life along side you in hospital still very ill,
but once I was well enough to come and see you I never wanted to leave your side, my son, so small and fragile, so helpless, I cried almost all the time looking at you laying in what we called your fish tank.
I finally plucked up the courage when you where 4 wks old to actually attempt to change your nappy and help with your feeding, I was so frightened I was going to
break your tiny legs or hurt you, but after the first time, I wanted to do it all the time, even would take over from the nurses just to get any chance at feeling like a mother and doing all the normal mummy things most would do.
You got bigger and stronger but still needed help to breath, the doctors said chronic lung diesease from being born so early, so the house was fitted out with all oxygen equiptment in hope and ready for when you would come home,
Finally at 16 wks and 3 days you weighed 5 lb 12 oz and we finally got the go ahead to bring you home, I was the proudest mum ever pushing you out of the unit and down the hallways, knowing I was not coming back with you and that I got to have you at home.
At home with me is where you belonged, you are now almost 5 years old, still have some issues with life, but mainly due to you being autistic and non verble.
You are my tiny dot, my little hero, you have been through so much, and I love you with all the love I have in me, my son, my wonderful son.
