This is the Faery Is Heartbroken Edition. If I thought yesterday couldn't get any worse, it did. I guess technically it was this morning that did it, 2 am in fact. So yeah, there is that.
We all watched and waited and cried all of yesterday. We loved on Merlin and begged him to let go. He is just laying on the floor, breathing erratically, some gentle purrs, some very strained purrs/whines. His abdomen is now so bloated that he tries to roll from side to side but that is it.
Cait asked me to sleep up in her room in case she needed me with Merlin. He stays in her room mostly, and if not with her, is with Scott. At 2am, I heard this horrible scream, and I jumped out of bed, thinking it was Merlin and it wasn't. It was Bunny. Cait and I rushed over to her, she panted and whined a bit, then had a seizure and died. In minutes. I am in shock. Just numb and hurting at the same time, I don't know how that can be but it is. Cait asked me to get Gary and he thought I was waking him about Mer as well, but when I told him it was Bun, he just stared and shook. After Gary went back downstairs, Scott woke up and came into Cait's room. He has this feeling something was wrong, and like all of us, thought it was Mer. When he heard about Bunny, he did what we all did, stared and shook and said stupid things over and over, like I don't understand and WTF?
As soon as the vet's office opens up I am going to make an appt for Merlin. I am so torn, I would so much rather that he go here, where he is comfortable, than in the vets office. But I didn't think that he would make it through the night, so how can I even think to wait any longer? There are In Home Euthanasia services, but they are even more expensive than office ones. I wish I knew what to do.
I can't think.
I am lucky in a way, I was supposed to go food shopping today and there was a Cyber Monday coupon for the online shopping. I used that to cover the shopping fee and my order will be all ready to be picked up at 11.30. Thank god for small favors.
I have to go post my Challenge for Dec.
Love and hugs and thank you all for your support. xoxo
We all watched and waited and cried all of yesterday. We loved on Merlin and begged him to let go. He is just laying on the floor, breathing erratically, some gentle purrs, some very strained purrs/whines. His abdomen is now so bloated that he tries to roll from side to side but that is it.
Cait asked me to sleep up in her room in case she needed me with Merlin. He stays in her room mostly, and if not with her, is with Scott. At 2am, I heard this horrible scream, and I jumped out of bed, thinking it was Merlin and it wasn't. It was Bunny. Cait and I rushed over to her, she panted and whined a bit, then had a seizure and died. In minutes. I am in shock. Just numb and hurting at the same time, I don't know how that can be but it is. Cait asked me to get Gary and he thought I was waking him about Mer as well, but when I told him it was Bun, he just stared and shook. After Gary went back downstairs, Scott woke up and came into Cait's room. He has this feeling something was wrong, and like all of us, thought it was Mer. When he heard about Bunny, he did what we all did, stared and shook and said stupid things over and over, like I don't understand and WTF?
As soon as the vet's office opens up I am going to make an appt for Merlin. I am so torn, I would so much rather that he go here, where he is comfortable, than in the vets office. But I didn't think that he would make it through the night, so how can I even think to wait any longer? There are In Home Euthanasia services, but they are even more expensive than office ones. I wish I knew what to do.
I can't think.
I am lucky in a way, I was supposed to go food shopping today and there was a Cyber Monday coupon for the online shopping. I used that to cover the shopping fee and my order will be all ready to be picked up at 11.30. Thank god for small favors.
I have to go post my Challenge for Dec.
Love and hugs and thank you all for your support. xoxo
