Should I be so honest? Reveal my darker side?One which even I dont like to face? Its there. I will, for without truth, how can we count our friends? I believe weve all had friends who have hurt or betrayed us. I thought I had learned to forgive, but when the hurtful behavior continues, I find myself walking away, no longer wishing to see the person or endure the anguish; however, there are those with whom we cant just turn our back and refuse to face. Ive learned Im not as big a person as I would like to believe, for when a new offense arises, the feelings I believed had evaporated, forgiven, come unbidden, the memories as clear, the anger, the hurt, as bitter and biting as the first time. I feel my heart harden as I grasp inwardly for some kind of armor with which to protect myself. What I despise the most, is that these people force me to see myself in a light thats unappealing, unattractiveshowing me that Im not the person that I strive so hard to be. I have so much knowledge of whats been to myself and others by this person, that with one phone call, I could destroy him. Could I? Yes. Will I? NO.
The Bible says, and I cant find the exact quoteIts in Proverbs: Hate destroys the cup in which its heldor something close to thatand I find it so true.
The imagery is fairly self explanatory.
The cyan cast: Cold and icy feeling
The snake: Guess who?
Ice crystals: The cold, hard feelings
The bleeding rose: what once thought beautiful is dead and my heart bleeds with sadness.
Look carefully: In the left-hand sky, youll see an angelbegging me to think spiritually
The barbed wire around the neck: Protection
Bear with me, for once again, Ive found release in a poem (my own.uneducatedabandoning the rules of prose, yet reflective of my feelings.)
Everything in this lo was created by a new kit for a very creative new designer,
TotallyWild Dezinez @ Deviant Scrap, Devilish Wings
also used:
TotallyWild Dezinez @ Deviant Scrap, On the Edge 7 X 5 Overlays
TotallyWild Dezinez @ Deviant Scrap. Masks No. 1
Holliewood Studios @ Deviant Scrap, Void
And several brushes
Thanks so much for looking. Do you still like me?...now that the truth is known?
TFL
Kathi