Okay Susie, I added some grunge and it turned out great. You're right, nothing to be afraid of with grunge. <3. I went back to my "I cant AJ" page and chose one of the thoughts that landed there, well two if you count grunge, mom expectations. There is personal irony in using
Spicy for most of this LO.
Boys Only had the best chain, sorry I broke it

Just so it makes sense a little more, I had expectations of what my mom should be and they weren't met. I had expectations of what I would be as a mom. I've failed in some areas but as they've been pointed out I have worked to change them. I am breaking the chains that hold me to the past. Quote used:
“In the process of letting go you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself.”
– Deepak Chopra