My hubby snapped this pic of me in the middle of the night while I tried to calm my little one. I was inspired to do this LO by TLP blog challenge. TFL!
Journaling:
This is me, at 2 am. Right now. My hair disheveled, bags under my eyes, sleep deprived, not even sure of when I last showered. Im trying to calm the cries of my new baby boy. It seems hes been crying forever and all I want to do is crawl back into my bed and sleep. Im so tired, cranky and barely able to function. Will I ever sleep again? It doesnt seem like it. I see the nights go by and the days are a blur and I feel like Im living in a constant fog. I pray that he stops crying soon because Im sure hell wake his big brother and then I will have two crying children to soothe. As I pace his room with him in my arms, Im not sure of why I ever wanted to do this again. But then he starts to settle and I sit back down in my rocking chair and he begins to nurse. I look at him and a wave of love washes over me. Then, I remember. I realize and know. This will pass. Ive done this before. This is just a phase, one of many and before I know it, we will be on to the next. The sleepless nights and frustration are a small price to pay for the lifetime of love I will receive from my children. Since becoming a mother Ive experienced so many emotions and overcome so much and I would not trade any of it. I love my children and they are who I am. The definition of me has changed and will change through the years. Right now, Im a sleep deprived mommy, who despite having a foggy brain, is doing whats best for her family and if that means no sleep, then so be it. For now, this is me.
Credits:
By Lauren Reid:
Nelly mini kit, frame and tape from New Zeland Naturals, "so tired" label from Hot Momma to Be, scallop mat from Wonky Templates all at www.oscraps.com
Wordy Bits Basics and Wordy Bits alpha by Tiff Brady and Kate Hadfield @ TLP
Metallic circle stitch and drop shadows by Traci Murphy
