I did this for a January Memorial Page Challenge.

The journaling says:
Today is January 3rd2011. It is hard to believe that 19 years has passed since my Grandpa died on this day in 1992. I was 17 and totally unprepared to handle his death. It changed my life. The world suddenly looked different and felt much emptier. I was brokenhearted. Having lived only a five minute drive away from him all of my life, I struggled to accept that I would never see my Grandpa again. His illness took its toll suddenly. I went for a Sunday visit in November. He looked so sunken and gaunt. He went to the hospital the next day. The biopsy showed he was full of cancer. We were in shock and denial. When the doctors said he might live another 6 or so months, we believed them. We wanted to believe. Christmas was very sad. I dont remember much of that time but I have a vivid memory of my parents, my sister and I visiting him in hospital on Christmas morning. We gave him some tool he had wanted. Our hope was blinding us. My big regret is that I didnt visit him more in hospital. I didnt want to deal with it. If I could go back in time, Id have been there every day. On January 2nd, all of our family sat in my Grandpas hospital room as he struggled with life and death. All our extended family and his friends dropped by. My family was just getting through the moment. All of us trying not to break down. It was my first truly difficult moment in life. At some point that night, most of us went home. I think it was just my Grandma and my parents with Grandpa. I woke up at 6:45am and stared at the clock. before going back to sleep. Sure enough, that was the moment he died.. Death is part of life but I sure wish I could have known my Grandpa as an adult. I wish I had the chance to prepare for our goodbye.


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