Its been a long summer for a little girl who didnt have many playdates (for various reasons). She has spent a lot of time hanging out with us or playing with Alexa. Towards the middle of August, I noticed some changes in her behaviour. I noticed that she was very clingy to all of us and that she didnt play with her toys much at all anymore (something that she used to do a lot). She wanted to be right beside us, doing whatever we were doing. And if we left the room for whatever reason, she would ask wheres Dad? (or mommy, etc.), not two seconds after we had left. And I have to say, we were all feeling a little smothered with all of her attention. She was a bit better when we were on vacation, but still, she didnt play with her toys or paint at all-so unlike her. Finally when we returned home from our holidays, I slowed down and really started to listen to her. And I noticed some things. I noticed she seemed to feel like she was being rushed. Rushed to finish what she was saying, rushed to finish playing a game, rushed to be moved on to the next thing. This was so evident in her constant chatter. Her words came non-stop, almost in a I have so much to say and no time to say it kind of steady stream. And finally, I noticed all the I love you Mommys. And thats when I knew. She was feeling the upcoming change that Fall and Back To School time would bring-time away from us, especially me. My sweet little girl. How did I miss this for so long? It is such a typical reaction of yours. You try to deal, you keep it to yourself and it weighs heavy on your heart. I got it because I was feeling it, too. Except I was pushing my feelings deep down, not wanting to deal with them until that first day that I would eat lunch alone, that the house would be quiet for the entire day, that you would not be here asking me to play with you. I understand now why you held my hand so tightly all summer long, always wanting to be within reach. I am sorry sweet girl, that it took me so long to hear your heart, I love you so much.
=Now you've got me all emotional ! This is fantastic, your LO is stunning, but your journaling touches me so deep ... wow, wonderful how you put it into words. Hope you're all doing OK with the post vacation rythm now
Heather, this journaling is so heartfelt and real...thanks for sharing. Sometimes we are in such a hurry we don't stop to really listen! I'm so glad you did! Hope things are better now. And BTW, the page is beautiful!
Ok now you've gone and made me cry!! Fantastic layout Heather and how great that you have shared this with all of us! Hopefully you will both transition quickly to your new life!
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OH WOOOOOOOOW!!!! this is fabulous!!!!! What a beautiful page and the journaling!!!! Thanks for sharing with us!!! and what a great Mom you are....really listening and paying attention!!! You both will do just fine!!
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