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Recently daddy asked me if I realized that it had been 2 years since I has slept through the night. at the time I asked him if he was trying to make me depressed. You have never slept thought the night 5 or 6 hours is the most you will do. Lately you get up around midnight, 2am , and 6am, then you are up for the day between 7&8am. There are some nights where I dont get to sleep in my own bed. I get frustrated because you kick pinch and poke me. I wake up tired and unrested. We talked to the doctor about it an he wants up to just let you cry. That is something I have not been able tolerate since the day you were born. If you were crying and calling for me and I did not go to you and there was something wrong, I could never forgive myself. I have been sick the last few days and worried even more about you getting it. So when you slept last night from 8pm to almost 5am, I worried. I woke up every hour and went in and checked on you. I wonder when you start sleeping through the night on a regular basis how long it will take me to start sleeping through the night. I try to tell myself that this is but a moment and that one day you will sleep through the night. The doctor is not going to be happy with me but
I just cannot let you cry...
8 January 2011