Oscraps
Dream
for my challenge on La's blog.
"Don't Let Me Go" by Lauren Grier @ Sweet Shoppe tomorrow!
Fonts: Gimme Space by Darcy Baldwin & Lauren Reid
and My own font by Darcy!
journaling reads:
I have had many dreams, like becoming a famous singer or chef, & still have some big dreams today, like becoming an amazing photographer! However, my biggest dream, that I would be willing to give up just about anything for, would be to be a mother. Thats what I believe I was made for. Part of my purpose in life, is to be a mother, to have children, whether biologically or through adoption & to love them unconditionally & raise them in a Christian home learning to love & serve the Lord with their entire lives!
Alan and I had no idea when we were dating & engaged that wed ever have trouble getting pregnant. It never even crossed my mind. I just thought, when we wanted to start trying, we would & wed be successful. Well, the Lord has had other plans for us. We have been trying to have a baby for over 2 years & 7 months now and it still has not happened for us. It is very very hard, but we are just trusting the Lord to have His perfect will in our lives. Ive had some really hard times through this trial. Ive dealt with some depression, been angry at God & have even questioned my belief in Him. I know that He is so real! He has done so much in my life, that I dont know how I ever questioned Him! But, thats been one of my struggles dealing with infertility. But, the Lord has, several times, brought me to that place showing me that He is in control & that He is ALL that I need!
Well, after a lot of research & talking to family members & finding out that it runs in my family, we believe that we might possibly know what the problem could be! Ive talked to my OBGYN & she and I (and Alan, of course), have decided that there is a very good chance that I may have endometriosis. However, the only way to be sure is through laparoscopic surgery. So, on July 27th, Ill be having surgery to find out if this is the cause for our infertility. I am really excited about the surgery. It will, hopefully, be able to show us whether Ill ever be able to be pregnant or not. Endo is a common disease & can easily be taken care of!
I do admit though, that I do always dream of being pregnant someday. But, that might not be part of Gods plan for our lives. We are perfectly happy with adoption & have always planned to do so someday anyway. So, whatever the Lords will is, no matter how hard it might be to accept, we will continue to trust Him to give us the right baby at the right time. So, whether it be through adoption, or by Gods grace, through our own pregnancy, I just cannot wait to fulfill my lifelong dream of being a mother!
"Don't Let Me Go" by Lauren Grier @ Sweet Shoppe tomorrow!
Fonts: Gimme Space by Darcy Baldwin & Lauren Reid
and My own font by Darcy!
journaling reads:
I have had many dreams, like becoming a famous singer or chef, & still have some big dreams today, like becoming an amazing photographer! However, my biggest dream, that I would be willing to give up just about anything for, would be to be a mother. Thats what I believe I was made for. Part of my purpose in life, is to be a mother, to have children, whether biologically or through adoption & to love them unconditionally & raise them in a Christian home learning to love & serve the Lord with their entire lives!
Alan and I had no idea when we were dating & engaged that wed ever have trouble getting pregnant. It never even crossed my mind. I just thought, when we wanted to start trying, we would & wed be successful. Well, the Lord has had other plans for us. We have been trying to have a baby for over 2 years & 7 months now and it still has not happened for us. It is very very hard, but we are just trusting the Lord to have His perfect will in our lives. Ive had some really hard times through this trial. Ive dealt with some depression, been angry at God & have even questioned my belief in Him. I know that He is so real! He has done so much in my life, that I dont know how I ever questioned Him! But, thats been one of my struggles dealing with infertility. But, the Lord has, several times, brought me to that place showing me that He is in control & that He is ALL that I need!
Well, after a lot of research & talking to family members & finding out that it runs in my family, we believe that we might possibly know what the problem could be! Ive talked to my OBGYN & she and I (and Alan, of course), have decided that there is a very good chance that I may have endometriosis. However, the only way to be sure is through laparoscopic surgery. So, on July 27th, Ill be having surgery to find out if this is the cause for our infertility. I am really excited about the surgery. It will, hopefully, be able to show us whether Ill ever be able to be pregnant or not. Endo is a common disease & can easily be taken care of!
I do admit though, that I do always dream of being pregnant someday. But, that might not be part of Gods plan for our lives. We are perfectly happy with adoption & have always planned to do so someday anyway. So, whatever the Lords will is, no matter how hard it might be to accept, we will continue to trust Him to give us the right baby at the right time. So, whether it be through adoption, or by Gods grace, through our own pregnancy, I just cannot wait to fulfill my lifelong dream of being a mother!