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Journaling reads:

If there is one thing I've learned in life , you will be thrown many curve balls. Just when you think life is going along as planned,
a curve ball will be thrown at you.
You baby are my curve ball. I wasn't expecting to suddenly find myself pregnant after 3 babies. It didn't even register in my realm
of possibility. I had decided I was done with late night feeding and endless diaper changes. I hit the jackpot already. I have three
amazing healthy kids. I have started working again. I was enjoying small tastes of freedom, and a long overdue sense of independence and
yet you grow inside me unsuspecting of my turmoil.
Are you healthy? Can we afford this? How am I possibly going to find the time and love in my heart for another? I'm scared.
I love you already. I'm exhausted physically and emotionally. Another boy? A girl? How will I manage? How will Joseph deal with no
longer being the baby of the family? I can't get the questions to stop running through my mind. I wasn't even sure how to end this letter to
you but as I write this Joseph climbed into bed beside me and proudly proclaimed me "his buddy" and that's all it took to start seeing clearly.
I won the jackpot again and I didn't even see it until just now.