Credits: Quirky Crow by Polka Dot Plum and TaylorMade Sketch #7 by TaylorMade Designs.

Journaling:

In my short life so far, Ive been through some very painful things. At a young age, I had a son and through a series of circumstances, he now lives with his father and family. For years Ive felt that I was less than a mother because I lost my son. After the birth of my daughter, it hit me harder than ever, the reality of losing him. I never realized how awful the pain was at feeling less than the mother I should be. It took a long time to come to grips that there is nothing I can do to change my past, only make my future better with him. Over this past year, I feel that Ive grown closer to him, and weve finally come to an understanding. I think he now knows that I dont love him any less and he is a very lucky boy, with an even larger family to love him than most kids get. I never thought Id be grateful for his other family, but as I see other split families trying to cope with sharing their kids, I do indeed see how lucky I am. I am grateful that he has a whole other family that loves him unconditionally and they would do anything for him. They are raising him better than I could have hoped for and I am grateful for that. Over the past year, his step-mother and I have become a lot closer, and I daresay, were on our way to becoming good friends. Its been a long road, but I am grateful for the way things turned out and so lucky to have such a wonderful son who in turn has a huge loving family behind him every step of the way of his growth into manhood.